“CROSSROADS”-Nayana Nair

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I see myself sitting at the crossroads of life.

Scorched under the sun of reality.

Its heat is part indifference

to my existence and my ways.

And part a mocking laughter

at where I have led myself.

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This defeat is not about

smashed dreams or tears of loss.

Just an echo of a sound

that has left my heart.

Just a face I know, I see,

But can never be.

It’s not the loss of illusion

that shielded me from what I am.

The dread that whatever life may give me.

It can never give me back the illusion of control,

belief that I can be whatever I want to be,

when I didn’t want to be me.

When I saw myself as amalgamation

of all life’s mistakes and faults.

The biggest attraction in the exhibition

of ‘live’s gone wrong and people gone astray’.

Yet ,I yearn to be the failure I once was.

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Once I saw myself sitting at crossroads of life.

Begging people to love me.

Begging for a glance.

Begging to make me believe in myself.

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Today, I see myself sitting at the crossroads.

Begging people to give me back what I was.

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14 Comments

  1. The Poetry Channel says:

    Love the poem and the presentation.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you πŸ™‚ I am glad you liked it πŸ™‚

  2. A powerful driver, the idea of being given back what we had works really well.
    And of course, people never do, seems a catch 22.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Sometimes everything in life seems catch 22 πŸ™‚ I am gad you liked the poem. Thank you πŸ™‚

  3. Deeply beautiful! With a sense of longing for identity.

  4. cherished79 says:

    Beautiful writing, love this poem. πŸ™‚

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks a lot πŸ™‚

  5. cherished79 says:

    Reblogged this on living in stigma and commented:
    Beautiful, love this poem.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you for reblog. πŸ™‚ and for your kind words. Means a lot πŸ™‚

  6. rothpoetry says:

    This is a really great piece! Very heartfelt and expressive!
    Dwight

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you πŸ™‚ Glad you liked it πŸ™‚

  7. efge63 says:

    You are wonderful!!!!!!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you dear πŸ™‚ Means a lot πŸ™‚

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