Her fingers brushed past my skin, in a hurry to avoid what I am. As if she knew what to avoid, what not to remind, what must not be spoken – for the love to remain. Only after I learnt to let my footsteps be taken by the waves, only after taking myself out ofContinue reading ““Better Understanding” – Nayana Nair”
It would have been a beautiful breaking, if only I could break once and for all. If time and love didn’t heal me, if I was not patched up every night. If only I could forget where it used to pain.
I have always looked at you with wonder and worry, as you held me in your arms from falling. Did you ever know that I fell anyway? The relief of having you close vanishes in that fall, replaced with only awareness of this body that I live in and this mind where I die. LetContinue reading ““As you try to save me” – Nayana Nair”
As the light and the life of the streets are switched on, I wait for your knock on my door, my heart going on imaginative trips to the hell of not knowing. Not knowing with whom you might fall in love, where you might find another broken human to pet, in what form will thatContinue reading ““Switched On” – Nayana Nair”
He tries to mould his tongue and his lips so he can speak his words her way, so he can speak his own name as she used to.
The light over him has seen his wrist caught in emotion waiting for words to come and rescue this body that is defeated by passing time, that leaves it behind in the memory it wants, memory it hates, the memory that drains the blue from the night and fills this breaking cracking world with theContinue reading ““Another fracture in the world” – Nayana Nair”
He roamed the cells with missing guards, doors wide open to the world that he once had, that he once loved, but can never face again.
Lets go down together- in the darkness that you dread so much, towards the love that you want so much. Let me hold the falling you, let me become the warmth that you never knew. I have a bleeding heart that knows too much of love and doesn’t know when to give up. The smileContinue reading ““Too Much Love” – Nayana Nair”
I am stuck somewhere between the hopeless continuation and the frightening end. The spiraling down tower of love, the staggering me- filled to brim with saved up hopes spilling, losing one calming delusion at a time- wasted on the people, wasted on reality that never wants to change, never wants to grow. The soft skyContinue reading ““Losing my delusions” – Nayana Nair”
I return to my unaffected neighborhood. The success of my efforts to keep them ignorant vexes me, their narrow vision, their inability to see me as I do, their belief in me, the love they handout to me, the children that look up at me- making me feel smaller. ~ I have no option butContinue reading ““One More” – Nayana Nair”