“Crack in my mind” – Nayana Nair

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I couldn’t look into the eyes of the people I knew all my life
or even people who never knew me.
Every morning I woke up
I felt I have left a part of me in the nightmare
of the last the day.
I was afraid that with every hello that I said
I will leave open a crack in my mind
for people to look into.
That all that I had written on paper
is printed on my skin.
I was afraid that if people knew of my condition
I would not have enough energy or excuses
to refute their point
if they put their suspicions in words.
I was afraid of lot of things
for a long time
and most of it was to be seen in a way
that I didn’t want to be seen.

7 Comments

  1. efge63 says:

    Have a nice week!! Send you my love!!!!!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      You too dear 🙂 Lots of love !!!

  2. Are you willing to let everyone see the real you? 🙂

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      At this point I am not even sure, what real me is anymore 🤔
      😊

  3. People so often project its natural you feel this way.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      I agree. It is because people think it is okay to feel this way, that the ones who struggle feel guilty when they give importance to what they feel.

      1. Yes well what you feel IS important and your feelings are yours and make sense which is why I get angry when others tell me not to feel a certain way… Its not fair….:( but sadly its a huge part of human nature.

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