“What I Remember(5)” – Nayana Nair

No it is not an escape anymore
it is not only me
who is into these addictions of milder kind.
All I want is what everyone already has.
Don’t worry these books and music I get high on
don’t alter my perception of reality
like they used to before.
So I am fine with irrelevant goals of
having one more book to read, one more page to fill up,
and some hours to sit and stare at screens of literature of a cruder form.
They may not constitute the real meaning of life.
But I have not seen anyone who is particularly worried
about missing the real point of life.

. . .   .   .     . 

I know this consumerism and media culture irritates you.
That I look like one of the thousands who sit and demand
to be entertained, to be fed with something other than
the reality of insufficient time and cash.
Would it make me more real, would your gaze become more softer
if I bring up a portion of my life where I was hurt by this world,
when the reality didn’t change just because of my disappointment in it.
That not everyone can be one with the nature and one with society,
when nature is far away from where we are locked,
when society is all about waiting for someone else
to mess up on a grander scale than us.
See that is what I don’t want to talk about.
It is depressing enough to live it.
We can either discuss about how I almost found friend in a fictional character,
found a mirror or even a window in another,
how I do not agree with most reviews,
how I couldn’t get the tragic end of the story out my head.

. . .   .   .     . 

I don’t mind sitting in front immaculate shows of lies
if that is where the my temporary relief of my life is hidden,
at least we are entitled to that much – relief.


  1. -@thesoulfulempathizer says:

    What you write is what can be actually felt! You have a great ability to articulate emotions into words.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really means a lot to hear that 😊
      Thank you so much 😊😁

  2. theburningheart says:

    I believe you are doing pretty well, despite not knowing your personal circumstances, your writing show articulation, and talent to express your feelings, there’s this hurt you talk about.

    Life success it’s Alchemy, change your mindset, and become a stoic, then you will be all you want to be, nothing to do with our outside circumstances, but with our within, and it’s subjective appreciation. 🙂

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked my work. Means a lot to hear such kind words.
      I agree with you. Ultimately it is our inner strength that helps us get out of any situation that we are in. And we have to relentlessly keep trying to get where we want to without losing ourselves.
      Thanks a lot for the your words of support and appreciation 😊😁

  3. gary j says:

    for a person young, your perspicacity and wisdom are an inspiration to me, an old man. thankyou so very much for existing. Peace and love to you and yours.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      I am really glad that you liked my work:)
      Though I do not think that my words and thoughts can never match up to the wisdom that your experience and age have given you but I am thankful for such kind words. Means a lot to me 🙂
      Peace 🙂

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