There was never a point of time
when I could sit back and say-
“This is home.
This is where I will always be.
No one can take me away from here.
Here is where I am bound to be.”
Because I could never hold onto anything
even when I wanted to.
***
I was always convinced
that there is something very sinister in me
that would be seen, that would show itself
sooner or later,
that I am not all good.
In fact being good is not in my nature,
but just something I carry out
so that people can try to love me,
a behavior I often dropped
when it suited me.
***
But as much as I am repelled my nature
I also end up finding myself pitiful for how I end up alone
and knowing my flaws
doesn’t make me hate myself enough
to stop me from demanding some consolation from my life
for making it so far.
I want to believe that I at least deserve
a small happiness of my own,
if not the joys of entire world.
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Hi,
I am Nayana Nair. I'm 28. Just a person who has tons of things to talk about....not much organized thoughts sadly.
I'm interested in all forms of storytelling (though I don't have the talent for it). So I like series, movies, novels, anime, and whatnot. I'm also really passionate about music, psychology, learning languages (I just dream big, too undisciplined to makes any actual progress) and literature. I am overall just a curious person who is interested in all kinds of things, as long as they suit my taste.
I always wanted to be a writer (and also a teacher)..But I don't think I have the skills required...this blog is just my attempt at becoming the writer I always wanted to be...Blogging for few years, I have realized I am more of a poet (although, I am not sure that I am good enough for that label)...I hope I realize more about myself through writing.
Thanks for dropping by!! Hope I didn't disappoint. :)
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Ohh it really nice…ππ
Glad you liked it π
Thank you π
Oh no, you DO deserve so much.
Especially happiness and the joys of the world. Say to yourself, you deserve this and it shall be so.
Thanks dear π will try telling myself that
It’s just that when it comes to the question of what we deserve- as much as we deserve better, somewhere in our mind we also know we deserve worse. As we have as much bad as we have done good. But I agree with you we should try to stay positive and try to reach out for the happiness that the world deserves in general. π
No raining in the heart today okay?
Im sending my sunshine your way.
Ok π no more rains for today π
Thank you for the sunshine π
You deserve all the happiness in the world. You are simply FANTASTIC.
Thank you π Means a lot π
Most welcome.