“Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair

I want to love you with the sincerity that I don’t have.
I want to want you desperately, even when I am fed up with you.
I want to look at you as if you are my everything
even when I know that you are not.

The only thing that stops me
from being the love that I dreamed of being
are my own shortcomings.
I am not patient.
I am not true to my words.
I do not hold an endless sea of love in me,
if anything
you might only find misdirected anger,
petty grudges and resentment in my heart.
I am too sensitive, not in a good or sweet way,
but in an irritating intolerant way.
I am someone who wants all sweet things
but have only bitterness to give back.
In my spare time
I make list of what I lack
not to improve
but so that I have ready excuses when I need them
and I only need them with you.
I need them so I can stay selfish,
so that I can continue to be by your side
and not fall apart with shame.

I know you deserve the world
but let my greed win for once,
for this life
close your eyes on everything I do wrong.
My love may not be great or even good enough
but I love you
even when my love for you and want for you
makes me the worst person in my own eyes.
That must count for something.
Make this one mistake for my sake,
let me have you for this life.

15 Comments

  1. _PritAmDas_ says:

    I felt thatπŸ€—πŸ˜. Beautiful mate.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked it πŸ™‚
      Thanks a lot πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you dear πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

  2. frejatravels says:

    oh.. so poetic. Love is selfish:)

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked it dear πŸ™‚
      Thanks you πŸ™‚

      1. frejatravels says:

        You are welcome and have a fantastic week ahead:)

      2. Nayana Nair says:

        You too have an awesome weekend dear πŸ™‚

  3. bossils says:

    I always enjoy reading what you write. Super talented πŸ™‚

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you dear for such kind words πŸ™‚ Means a lot.
      I am glad to know that you enjoy reading my work. πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

  4. Sherin says:

    Last line-beautiful πŸ™‚

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks a lot 😊
      Glad that you liked it 😊

  5. This is such a soulful piece of poetry… many thanks for sharing..!!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked my work πŸ™‚
      Thank you so much πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

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