“Foresee” – Nayana Nair

The wave that ran towards me, threatened me, filled me with fear, turned out to be nothing. It didn’t even reach me. The demons I saw in my future turned out to be nothing like I thought of. I kept you away. I suffered in vain. My life with you could have a paradise, ifContinue reading ““Foresee” – Nayana Nair”

“Remaining Life” – Nayana Nair

Hand me back my fear. Remove all signs of caution. Anyway, I am dying slowly. I don’t want to know more. I don’t want to know better. Come into my mind. Here there is no better. There are only picture frames that do not break even when they have lost the images they lived for.Continue reading ““Remaining Life” – Nayana Nair”

“Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair

the sun is so much brighter than it used to be it makes me wonder if i remembers my days correctly. has it always been like this, when did my eyes start creating its own darkness. (is there a word for it? like there is a word for plants creating food from the drops ofContinue reading ““Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair”

“Who I am” – Nayana Nair

I will spend some nights listening to why I am not the one you can love. I will keep you awake and keep myself in pain till I get this list down, till I memorize it all, till “who I am” just means “what you can’t love”. I daydream about how I will leave you.Continue reading ““Who I am” – Nayana Nair”

“seine” – Nayana Nair

Sit here and cry your eyes out.I know you don’t want to look weak, that you don’t want my strength to be the only things that keeps you standing.But if only you would cry, if only you would let your weakness show, I could find in myself the courage to let you see my tearsContinue reading ““seine” – Nayana Nair”

“Holes” – Nayana Nair

I do not want to fill up your absence with anything.I want them to become holes that move and eatand behave in ways delusions cannot.I want them to ruin this world for me.Even when time eats away my brain,I want to remember only you.I want you to be my phantom heart.I want you to beContinue reading ““Holes” – Nayana Nair”

“Frail Sheep” – Nayana Nair

I kept typingand just when I thoughtthis is it,this is what I want to say,140 characters were over,the day had ended,you had closed your eyes,and turned your face to other side. I told myself-‘tomorrow,tomorrow i will tell you everything,tomorrow we will be happy.you may not love me againafter i say all i need to say,butContinue reading ““Frail Sheep” – Nayana Nair”

“A Dying Storm” – Nayana Nair

i close all the doorsas if a storm in coming,as if closed doors can protect me from something so huge,as if hiding is a better option than fleeing.‘i wish i had created more places to hide in my life’i thought this as tried to burn all my best clothesas if i will freeze to deathContinue reading ““A Dying Storm” – Nayana Nair”

“Golden Sand” – Nayana Nair

I was convinced that if I wrote a bit more my skin will turn into the golden sand that lines the beach that I write of, that I can finally dig into myself without bleeding, without anyone’s help, without anyone’s love, and find something of value in myself. – But when I reached that shoreContinue reading ““Golden Sand” – Nayana Nair”