“Putting myself to sleep” – Nayana Nair

Every night
as you sleep,
I fold myself up
into someone I used to be.
I try to fit into the space beside you
where no longer fit.

But your warmth
now only brings me tears.
I wish it didn’t.
Even though I stopped wanting you,
I don’t think I stopped loving you.
I wish I didn’t.
I know I will give you up someday
but till then
I wanted to gift you few more days-
few more days of ignorance.
You will probably sleep through them
not knowing how much I must have loved you
to stay beside, you even when you were not watching,
withstanding my pain as long as possible.

The night grows deeper,
your sleep lasts longer,
my cries become louder,
but there is no one for me,
no one to care, if I cry.

Please wake up
and see my tears
before I can hide them.
Put me to sleep,
please love me back,
love me again,
before I give up on you.


  1. So much feeling in your words …

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€ Means a lot to hear that πŸ™‚

  2. efge63 says:

    This is a great post full of emotions !!!!!!!! Have a nice day Nayana!!!!!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked it dear πŸ™‚
      You to have an awesome day πŸ™‚

      1. efge63 says:

        ❀ ❀ Kisses!!!!

  3. What a heart full post and also loved your featured image.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much!!!
      Really glad that you liked it πŸ™‚

  4. Heartbreaking, heartfelt… beautiful

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks you πŸ™‚ Means a lot πŸ™‚

      1. You’re welcome πŸ™‚

  5. noblethemes says:

    Heart wrenching, soul-deep, and so sad, this poignant and provocative piece is very moving and believable. It brings me to tears, in fact, and stirs within me a profound longing for some happy conclusion for the protagonist in the poem. Very well done, indeed! Peace and blessings to you, Nayana!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really thankful for your kind words. I am really happy that the feelings of this character could reach you. Thank you so much. Means a lot πŸ™‚

  6. Poignant.. Beautiful.. πŸ˜‡πŸ’•

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

      1. πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡

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