“Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair

the ones we sign our valentine cards to,the ones we tie ourselves to for lifewait for us to die (or some form of death) to become free.their heart is full of love – only not for us. they tiptoe at night to bury their crimesand demand honesty only when it suits what they have inContinue reading ““Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair”

“this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair

wave after wave of cold air,of sad premonitionsreached us, tried to convince usthat this was a really bad idea.that on a cold day like thisthere were easier ways to find warmth,ways that would take away no part of us. and frankly i was afraid.i stopped maybe a million times on my tracks.i waited for someoneContinue reading ““this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair”

“It is fine if you don’t understand” – Nayana Nair

Being here and seeing,allowing this world to enter your mind is an isolating experience. Only I can know how something enters my mind,how my mind cannot make sense of it,how I close my eyes to new light,how I give up and let this experience take over me. We can look at a flower together.But onlyContinue reading ““It is fine if you don’t understand” – Nayana Nair”

“Cutouts of Star Factories” – Nayana Nair

Though the sky is filled with lightsthe nights on this land are lonely as ever.Again I am in lovewith a part of sky,with things that we call heavenly only because they are out of our reach,only because they are not ours to keep,because every god seems to love them more. I end up on websitesContinue reading ““Cutouts of Star Factories” – Nayana Nair”

“from where i stand, you are the only star” – Nayana Nair

Now that we have buried all the clocks,a day passes only when our eyes meet again,night comes only when we say goodbye.And when I walk away from the shade of her smile,I think that I am forgetting something,something that would have made me sad.But her name, her words have grown ferociously, violentlyon whatever I onceContinue reading ““from where i stand, you are the only star” – Nayana Nair”

“feelings on the forevers that worked out” – Nayana Nair

you won’t believe this. yesterday, coincidentally i met the couple that always looked cute together.the ones i thought will be together forever.yesterday, i was sad for the first time that they are together even after so many years.that they made something out of their love, when we can’t. as i smiled at them and askedContinue reading ““feelings on the forevers that worked out” – Nayana Nair”

“Words that I must not forget, but I will” – Nayana Nair

A stranger told me that I am capable of living better,if only I throw away my thoughts and assumptionsabout what I deserve and what I should not want. The sun tiptoed around mestealing a bit of my shadow for every minutethat I stood at the door created by these words.But I didn’t have the courageContinue reading ““Words that I must not forget, but I will” – Nayana Nair”

“the giants continue to live in my dreams” – Nayana Nair

Across the streetlived the giants.The green giants-who waited for rains to cry,who waited for the night to speak. Thankfully the windows in my temporary homewere small and few.Thankfully it was always cold,that awful cold that makes you want to sleep for a long long time. So I slept and slept.I ate whatever my mother cooked.IContinue reading ““the giants continue to live in my dreams” – Nayana Nair”

“Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair

what is the use of loving youif you won’t speak less and be less for the sake of my ego,if you don’t have the proportions or face to brag about,if you won’t sleep with me,if you have “anxiety attacks” just when i am having fun(it is embarrassing, grow up)if my mom won’t like you,if youContinue reading ““Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair”

“Evergreen” – Nayana Nair

The nights are not that painful anymorewhatever grows in meis evergreen.It has no care for lack of light in this world,no care for years filled with question marks.Unlike me,it has no fear to be eaten up or extinguished.Unlike me. It is so unlike me,that I can rely on it to keep me floatingeven my handsContinue reading ““Evergreen” – Nayana Nair”