“Stack of Books from Strangers” – Nayana Nair

Now everything tastes like my oft-repeated past.
This bitter turn of events
has brought new meaning to my pain that I didn’t ask for.
This morning I even look like someone who needs help.

I guess I may have looked that way for a long time
in everyone’s eyes but mine.
In my eyes, I was doing better,
good enough to be not noticed and singled out.

I smiled enough to keep people from seeing
all the mess I carried in me.
But lately, strangers hand me books
to keep my sad mind busy.

Books that tell me
that it is not too late, that one at a time
I can make something out of the soil that won’t leave my skin,
the soil that I am buried under.

I want to believe in this nonsense more than anyone can imagine.
But my heart is not the same now
as it was years ago.
It no longer believes the words that feel good and hurt later.

2 Comments

  1. Books that tell of how to live life, or why you are wrong, books that deceive in their image of hope. The problem with books is that they are there to read, but when you want to write your own page the author has gone, leaving you stranded. I love your work, I hope one day you will get it published ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

    1. ” but when you want to write your own page the author has gone, leaving you stranded.”…that’s a beautiful thought. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Glad that you liked it ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you ๐Ÿ™‚
      (I do not have that much confidence in my work, to consider it being published. maybe one day ๐Ÿ™‚ )

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