“Here I Am” – Nayana Nair

Just for sake of missing you,
here I am again,
at the ill-lit spaces where you used to belong.
I know all the strangers in there
the ones who used to make your heart race.
Here I am again,
trying to test myself, pushing my luck,
waiting to witness the record time
in which I will break again.
Here I am again,
wearing all the faces of me
that you never liked.
There was something about the way you hated me,
that made me become worse.
There was something about the way you loved me,
that made me become the worst.
Here I am again
to become the monster
that I have been since
I realized what it means to love you.

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Nayana Nair

Hi, I am Nayana Nair. I'm 25. Just a crazy girl who has tons of things to talk about....not much organized thoughts sadly. I like to talk about everything...mostly..every conversation of mine turns into a monologue.... So I decided I should start writing a blog..rather than chat.... I'm very much passionate about music, psychology and literature.... Moderate interest in science..... I always want to be a writer (and also a teacher)..But I don't think I have the skills required...this blog is just my attempt at becoming the writer I always wanted to be...Blogging for few years, I have realized I am more of a poet (although, I am not sure that I am good enough for that label)...I hope I realize more about myself through writing. Thanks for dropping by!! Hope I didn't disappoint. :)


  1. That made me become the worst; or you meant what you wrote?
    There are people who draw out the worst in us.
    Poem is very well written Naayna, but in life I would like to remain far away from such people πŸ˜ŠπŸ€—

    1. I did mean what I wrote.
      By ‘made me become worse’ meant to become worse that what I was/am. And by ‘made me become the worst’ , I meant ‘to become the worst one in that relationship’ (since sometimes manipulative people can mess someone’s head to an extent that it causes them act in such a way that… they (the victim?) would stay because of their own guilt.).
      I agree with you that we would all like to keep our distance from such people, but I think the blindness and dependency resulted by ‘love’ can put us in situation and with people that we would have never expected to find ourselves with.
      Really glad that you liked my poem πŸ™‚
      Thank you πŸ™‚ ::D

      1. But what you have written is: Made be and not Made me become worse … typo ?
        I had understood your meaning Naayna. You write very well 😊

      2. Oh….my bad πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€
        Yupp that was a typo.
        Actually even when you pointed it out, I read it again and again, but while reading my brain automatically kept reading it as ‘me’, even thought I had written ‘be’.
        Thanks a lot for pointing that out. Have corrected it πŸ™‚
        Thank you πŸ™‚

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