“creation” – Nayana Nair

strangelyeven there, even on the canvas of my imaginationwhere I get to act the god,even in that worldwhere you are nothing but my creation,even there I can’t imaginea happier end for us. -o- because i can edit our photoson the cities we never got to visitand i can write you some words, give you someContinue reading ““creation” – Nayana Nair”

“i hope i forget this life” – Nayana Nair

matter, substance, meaning…as my vocabulary expanded with such words,i knew,i had an inkling that this is howi would be disillusioned,with such small wordsi would be driven to despair. i would find there is another face behind every smile,and that some of those upturned lips are just empty coffins.a smile so sad, a wordless lieso easilyContinue reading ““i hope i forget this life” – Nayana Nair”

“Digestible” – Nayana Nair

to be human is to float like a single cell lifedevouring pieces of digestible meaning, splitting and cutting oneself without blood loss into something more manageable.to be human is to lose your legsto the ideas of nation, families, and lovers.to be a human like me is to look atherbivores, carnivores, omnivores, scavengers…and wonder what hungerContinue reading ““Digestible” – Nayana Nair”

“Half-Hearted” – Nayana Nair

And every morning I hear wind, I hear birds,I hear children play around in me.I am filling myselfwith everything that reminds me of what I really am.I let my heart do what it wants, my heart wants no part in this remaking of me.It starts it’s days praying for your returnand goes to sleep, thankfulContinue reading ““Half-Hearted” – Nayana Nair”

“and one day i stopped without wanting to” – Nayana Nair

i am a girl who reads too much between lines, especially yours.and your words, they were coldbut they were warmer than the pages they were written on.and since i wanted to love youi tried to see your world as one big adventureeven when my heart was filled with fear.i tried to do things that mightContinue reading ““and one day i stopped without wanting to” – Nayana Nair”

“she must have been as lovely as you once were” – Nayana Nair

i happened to find a picture of yoursa blue ocean engulfing two shadows it must have killed youto have come back alone to sit and imagine what she could lived likeif you were the one lost and buried in the sea even though you are wretched and she is gonebut it is because you heldContinue reading ““she must have been as lovely as you once were” – Nayana Nair”

“I am not mistaken. I know it doesn’t hurt you.” – Nayana Nair

I wish for once to be unstable enough,to lose it for once,to kill every part of me that wants to take your nameevery minute of the day,to throw away this shit that you haveengraved me into-into your bigger plans, into your list of exes,into the list of girls who would never be good enough forContinue reading ““I am not mistaken. I know it doesn’t hurt you.” – Nayana Nair”

“how storms fade” – Nayana Nair

twenty-six steps away from the cold end,we stand together as if we are both looking at a foe we must defeat together.a child passes us by with a yellow balloon.how misplaced it seems, this childin this place made of storms. this is something i don’t want to do.our steps will fade into the deep endContinue reading ““how storms fade” – Nayana Nair”

“you know where you have hidden your light” – Nayana Nair

have you come to find the life, the handthat lit every eye that you have come across? you can sit here and look at me for your whole lifebut you won’t forget the one whom you cannot face. she had a sweeter heart than mine, i can guess.every lover in their best moment were asContinue reading ““you know where you have hidden your light” – Nayana Nair”

“Wrong Answer” – Nayana Nair

My guarantees and my assurancesdo not come from my own voice,do not reflect even a iota of my feelings.They are not my wordsand won’t ever be mineeven if voice them a million times.But you have to make do with these promises,the same way I am settling for yours.I cannot say “love me, i’ll make youContinue reading ““Wrong Answer” – Nayana Nair”