“Folds” – Nayana Nair

You are gone
and I try to hold the spoon like you used to.
I chew my food with my left molars as you did.
The ghosts that I have wronged, that I have forgotten
now include half of my teeth, teeth you would have never used.

You are gone
and you are happy (probably).
So I memorize name and phone number
of your every friend,
I recall the fondness you had for them.
I wear your feelings when I meet them,
I wear your feelings even when they won’t fit me.
I wonder if they noticed how I was spilling at some places,
how I was non existent in other folds-
folds that used to hold you so well.

You are gone
and I am gone (or that’s what I think).
I am my work, I am my songs,
I am the adjectives you made for me,
I am the report cards, I am the dust that settles on it,
I am the afternoon TV shows, I am the language I don’t understand.
I am what I am fond of.
I am mostly just you.

You are gone
and I fear
there is no one that can
stop me from growing
into you.

17 Comments

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Glad you liked it πŸ™‚
      Thank you πŸ™‚

  1. blindzanygirl says:

    Thus touched me Nayana x

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much dear πŸ™‚
      Really glad that you liked it πŸ™‚ x

  2. joyroses13 says:

    Always powerful poetry that you write!

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much dear πŸ™‚
      Really glad that you liked it πŸ™‚

  3. Ohhh, such a moving wistful and pensive poem that is so beautifully, bittersweet! Masterfully penned, My Dear!!
    xoxo

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      I am really glad that you liked this poem of mine. Thank you so so much. xoxo πŸ™‚

      1. I did!!! Wonderfully penned, My Dear!!
        xoxo 😊🌹🌹

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks a lot for the reblog πŸ™‚

      1. Always happy to share your words!!
        xoxo πŸ˜Šβœ¨πŸ‘

  4. Carol Anne says:

    this is stunning! so beautiful! Well done on the poem! ❀

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you liked it. Means a lot. πŸ™‚
      Thank you so much πŸ™‚

  5. pvcann says:

    A profound look at loss and love.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much πŸ™‚
      Glad that you liked it πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

      1. pvcann says:

        Absolutely liked it πŸ™‚

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