“Now I cannot hate myself” – Nayana Nair

But now I am not
me anymore.
Now I cannot hate myself
like I used to before.
Liking myself was never option,
for me anyway.
If only I could be one person
with a constant heart,
maybe then I could have
understood myself with enough time,
could have found the heart to see myself
as a mere human that I am.
But this,
this possession of my body
and my heart
by a new unknown
everyday
is tiring.
Today
the loneliness that I couldn’t show,
the songs I was supposed to forget,
the kiss that never left my lips
all become my new self.
Tomorrow it will be something else.
But it is a tiring relief
to lose my hate to confusion.

8 Comments

  1. macalder02 says:

    Finding ourselves inside and not being what it was is encouraging. I liked your poem. I enjoy reading your poetry.
    Manuel

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks a lot Manuel 🙂
      Really glad that you liked my poem 🙂

      1. macalder02 says:

        You are welcome

  2. shreyar2000 says:

    I loved reading your poem. 😊😇

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thank you so much dear 🙂 😀
      Means a lot to hear that 🙂

      1. shreyar2000 says:

        Your welcome.😊❣️

  3. usfman says:

    Why fight it then. Enjoy the present and accept that it is healthy to change.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      True. Change can be healthy. But I think that the fighting the change is also part of our story.

      A quote that I was reminded of just now (may or may not be related to the point being discussed):

      “It’s not the final judgement of ‘good’ and ‘evil’ that’s important. What matters is that you come to that decision yourself. That you agonize over it and eventually accept it.”- Akane Tsunemori (Psycho pass)

      Have a good day. Stay safe.
      Thanks for all the comments. 🙂

Leave a Comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s