“I want you to see the world” – Nayana Nair

i will read you another storyso that you may knowthat faults and lacks of humans are common and in abundance,how ordinary are expectations-not-met.i will read till my eyes closetill you can see all there is to see,till you see everyone around youwho are disappearing into silence,till you see all the kind words you could haveContinue reading ““I want you to see the world” – Nayana Nair”

“in the light that smiles nonetheless” – Nayana Nair

that’s where my anger lives on the mud stains of a size 7 shoesswimming on the white floor of my small apartment. in the plants uprooted, in the marigolds strewnand trampled on, in the light that smiles nonetheless. on the streets where lives my fear – that finds meand almost kills me, every time iContinue reading ““in the light that smiles nonetheless” – Nayana Nair”

“See Things” – Nayana Nair

If I could see fartherthan my will, my half-blindness allows,would I have wanted to see things for what they are?Probably not. Or maybe just wondering rather than wantingis a truer start.

“The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair

Today you are silentand you don’t care.You have changedwithout changing anything about you.You don’t want to be concerned withshould-be or could-beas all that matters is what is.what-is is a fact that needs no forgivenessfrom what-didn’t-come-to-be.You beg me not drag you downinto the waters of the past, “They are uglythey are hard, they are things thatContinue reading ““The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair”

“Temperaments and Thoughts” – Nayana Nair

We once loved this worldmore than ourselves.Now we just like everythingonly as much as our own temperaments and thoughts permit. The oranges reminds him of view from his broken home,the sour taste of everything that should have been beautiful. The glowing beads fill my mind with the images of meaningless gifts,the faces of men andContinue reading ““Temperaments and Thoughts” – Nayana Nair”

“On the Road to Spring” – Nayana Nair

The trees that flowermay extend their hands to the pitiful usand ask us to walk with them,learn a bit more about beginnings,about the ends that we must eventually be. Tell me, in those moments of hopeam I allowed to want?What should I do with the peopleI have abandoned, about the thingsI can’t be forgiven for?Continue reading ““On the Road to Spring” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair

At a bus stand in front of mall (that I have never been to)I learnt how to wait and how to live with disappointmentswithout making a big deal of it. In the bracket of an hour, I grew smaller than I ever thought I could be.“this is what love does to you, this is whatContinue reading ““What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair”

“My grief has my face” – Nayana Nair

My grief has my face.My grief has only questions in her eyes-questions that require me to cryand accept the cruel face of the love I have got.My grief instead gets my silent embrace,my refusal to choose better, for her sake or mine.My grief has my faceand my heart that only knows defeatand only in defeatContinue reading ““My grief has my face” – Nayana Nair”

“Undying” – Nayana Nair

The brightest star of my childhood dreamssits on the set of a sitcomand tells jokes about me.He wins few hearts and breaks few guitars-becomes an artist of some kind.He fills the screens with the love he only spoke about.I become a bit more irrational in his storiessometimes so much, that I feel no wonderwhen heContinue reading ““Undying” – Nayana Nair”

“Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair

You held me as I broke again and again.Your warm chest tried to hold me, to keep me alive.I couldn’t cry anymoreI felt indebted to you I loved you. You left me againin the crowd that you promised to protect me from.I called you, your number and you name-becoming useless to me with each passingContinue reading ““Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair”