Now that I have grown in height
and I cannot forget my name
even if I want to,
no one comes looking for me
when I go missing.
When I go missing,
when I finally succeed in getting lost
I buy a new plant, walk through strange streets,
come back home with my worn out heels
and new pictures on phone,
takeouts from restaurants whose name
feels weird on my lips, knowing more roads
that can take me home.
I sit defeated and happy
as I realize getting lost means nothing
if I can breathe just fine in this world,
if everything here can be my home.
But still there is sadness in me
for losing everything
that only that small world could hold.