I guess now I am the cruel one-
the one people fear to love.
This scenario was meant to be sad,
but it isn’t somehow.
(Why do the worst cases taste so bland to me
when finally they arrive?)
I guess it makes me relieved, if not happy,
to feel loneliness more often than feeling distance.
No one knocks at my door,
and I can’t help but smile
knowing it also means no would leave me.
No one would leave me in love, leave me in pieces,
leave me hating myself again.
(Why do my hopes sound like running away
even if I am facing life in every way I can,
the only way I am allowed to,
the only way forward that doesn’t require
sacrificing myself again?)
Published by Nayana Nair
I am Nayana Nair. I'm 28. Just a person who has tons of things to talk about....not much organized thoughts sadly.
I'm interested in all forms of storytelling (though I don't have the talent for it). So I like series, movies, novels, anime, and whatnot. I'm also really passionate about music, psychology, learning languages (I just dream big, too undisciplined to makes any actual progress) and literature. I am overall just a curious person who is interested in all kinds of things, as long as they suit my taste.
I always wanted to be a writer (and also a teacher)..But I don't think I have the skills required...this blog is just my attempt at becoming the writer I always wanted to be...Blogging for few years, I have realized I am more of a poet (although, I am not sure that I am good enough for that label)...I hope I realize more about myself through writing.
Thanks for dropping by!! Hope I didn't disappoint. :)
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Never lose your hope..
I will try my best dear 🙂
Thank you 🙂 😀
Beautiful words. We are the generation that always talks about running away, I dont know why.
Thanks dear 🙂 Glad you liked it 🙂
Means a lot 🙂
I agree with you that most of us do talk a lot about running away. But I don’t think that this feeling is specific to a generation. I think it is just about the life we lead and how of our life we feel is in our control. How much hope we have in a change. Maybe these days the people feel they have less control over what happens in their life and what happens to them. Maybe we as a generation at least have not been brainwashed into believing that vocalizing our helplessness as a sign of weakness or something to feel guilty about. This is just my guess. Honestly I am also not sure of the answer.
Recently I was watching a video where a person was saying that “I always feel like running away, but I don’t. And that is what matters.”