“As people change, I start to hope” – Nayana Nair

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Today I am a bit out of luck.
Today the sun shines bright
on the stairs to your home.
Today I am forced to see.
But it’s only for today though.
On days ruled by fog, I will again get to hope
that you might be sitting there,
till I reach the first cold step.

I can smile for the few minutes – the time it takes
before I realize everything else
in this world, that is not you,
can make more beautiful shadows of you.
Just like how, sometimes, even i don’t need you.
I don’t need you to cling to you, to beg you,
to feel your love, to be in love, to waste away like this.

Even when I wait though, I hope to quit on you soon.
Even in waiting I actually do not need you.
I imagine the days when I will not need this routine.
As people change and leave, I start hoping
that maybe I will also change and maybe I will also leave,
maybe one day I will forget the way to this place,
and these stairs will be just stairs
and not a place you couldn’t be,
and maybe life could be just life
not a story you are missing from.

And maybe when I also leave
there would be two shadows, not one
on these stairs.
Everything that makes me ache now
will be just what they should be-
things that will never give anyone any grief.

4 Comments

  1. This hit me hard… I am going through this very thing. Thank you for sharing this.

    “maybe one day I will forget the way to this place,
    and these stairs will be just stairs
    and not a place you couldn’t be,
    and maybe life could be just life
    not a story you are missing from.”

    1. I am glad you liked my poem and found my words relatable. Thank you so much 🙂
      I hope you make it through whatever you are going through and the pain in you eases with time.
      Have a beautiful day ahead. Take care. 🙂

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