“I just need to walk till that moment” – Nayana Nair

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A crowd fills the river now.
The winds wears
new streamers, new sails today.
There is a festivals of flower
with a funeral of spring.
There is something in the air
that wants me to live,
though there is something else
in my heart
that cries for an end.
But the festivals go on
and I keep walking in the crowd.
I smile till I forget
the weight of that smile.
I keep walking till
the crowd fills my heart,
till I wear the world on me.
Till I feel the hand of wind
embracing me as if
I am also one of its dearest kids.
I am ready to give up my hate,
I am ready to believe,
I am ready to be good
if I am held like that once –
like I matter, like I have all that I need to live,
like I can be loved and be hated and be nothing to someone
and yet worthy of this world.