“the open doors don’t mean much now” – Nayana Nair

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the towers
are open to the public now.
the crowd can now crow
and row and climb
to the better views-
a softer light,
a smaller distant world,
the illusions of gods
growing on our own earthly skin.
this radiance
was supposed to mean something else,
something more, something new though.
but these deafening footsteps,
this meaningless chatter,
these houses now growing like shrooms,
the clothes now drying on every step,
the resurgence of life and the blooming bruise,
the grass growing, the herds living
and dying in the shade of the tower-
they only make me cry.
even in their most wretched moments
they still remain things i can’t have.
the singular monument of hope
and its playground of chaos
and me, the only child
who doesn’t belong,
looks up at the promised sky,
feeling a new hollowness creeping.
feeling myself break
for the same old things in new ways.

4 Comments

  1. I really enjoy your posts. Keep going

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Really glad that you like my poems 🙂 Always thankful for your support 🙂

      Have a nice day 🙂

  2. To me everyone belongs somewhere, has a home to be found, or a soulmate to be found. I don’t think we always end up finding these things and sometimes we even find our home but then decide we are not going to live there. Searching can be a way of spending time that leads to being depressed, unless we really do believe we are going to find what we are searching for. The journey is usually as exciting as the destination if we have a positive outlook. thanks for another great poem. Take care Nayana.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      I agree with you David. There are things we are meant to find, roads that we are meant to travel. Our belonging can lie with a person, with a place or with the road, with the search. And as you said, so much of it is our own choice and own perspective and what we are ready to accept.
      Always thankful for your support and your views. Thank you so much 🙂
      Take care. Have a beautiful day 🙂

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