“Portals” – Nayana Nair

the wafer breaks and crumblesmy teeth find a red muscle to killagain my mouth bleedsbut no iron strikes my tasteso i wait for iti wait for my imagined painto become real i look at my handsmy unsightly weak handsthey are portals to my past selfhow they weighed its emptiness even when they held youhow iContinue reading ““Portals” – Nayana Nair”

“Blue white love” – Nayana Nair

As I wait for youin the back seat of your caralmost losing sense of my limbs and my scarsI smile – the sad smile I would never use when I am sober.I smile thinking,thankful,at least I am not crying and waitingin the trunk of some stranger’s car.I don’t necessarily love youbut I guess I loveContinue reading ““Blue white love” – Nayana Nair”

“Anything is better than this” – Nayana Nair

There is another in your heart.In your mind there is always a new another-someone you could have had.“Anything is better than this”, as you so often say.I wonder if the hell of your imagination has my face.For long my hell has been – you, keeping your options open.My hell has been – wondering if itContinue reading ““Anything is better than this” – Nayana Nair”