“Send You Away” – Nayana Nair

I bask in the sunlight of borrowed memory. I grieve in the arms of your dying words. I find another piece of myself to send you away with and I wonder why I feel empty even though you have given me your all.

“Poster” – Nayana Nair

I thought I would only have one poster when I decided to clearly define what I am. I stuck it up only after careful consideration. Consideration of the space it takes. Consideration of the how much I am allowed to grow. Condsideration for the things that will be hidden away and lost under the layerContinue reading ““Poster” – Nayana Nair”

“Inside our bones” – Nayana Nair

The cup of emptiness that we want to taste but we never make. That blue winter inside our bones. It is not empty nor cold. It if full of all our fears. It has face of all we have lost and all that can be lost. And it grows everyday by huge proportions. It growsContinue reading ““Inside our bones” – Nayana Nair”

“Loose Words” – Nayana Nair

The words once written with passion once written with anger, sometimes filled with sweet drops of sadness and sometimes with happiness that made cracks in our masks. All those words have broken down have become loose and weak. Those words are not our love. Those words are our lives. Our love is the ruled linesContinue reading ““Loose Words” – Nayana Nair”

“Beyond Repair” – Nayana Nair

At some place in my life I realized that I was ruined beyond repair. And when I was done with all the crying, with all the cursing, and being therapist to the girl that I was . I grew up enough to know, that even if I can’t be what I was, I can stillContinue reading ““Beyond Repair” – Nayana Nair”

“Held Down” – Nayana Nair

Though I want to write of you I find myself incapable of that. Cause I have not yet learned the words for the kind of person you are. And all I have written about you, the only thing that can live in those lines, is my heart that doesn’t yet know how to love you.Continue reading ““Held Down” – Nayana Nair”

“Flaw of my Heart” – Nayana Nair

Though I hate to admit it, I have known more happiness than I should. And the days of sorrow that I talk about were not as bad as I write. The flaw of my heart was always being too expectant, of overestimating my worth in the schemes of life. Believing that the tales I readContinue reading ““Flaw of my Heart” – Nayana Nair”

“Stories about me” – Nayana Nair

There have been numerous accounts of my failing life and the reasons of my silence. And these stories never cease to surprise me. From time to time I find the people in my life have had a story about me all along that even I was not aware of. Their uncalled kindness and their uncalledContinue reading ““Stories about me” – Nayana Nair”

“What went wrong” – Nayana Nair

Let us not delve into the question of what went wrong. I have loved heartache even as I was trying to run away from it. I have missed the mess my life was when I was granted the calm that I begged for. Everything I wanted could never soothe my wounds. Everything I have lovedContinue reading ““What went wrong” – Nayana Nair”

“Undone” – Nayana Nair

The world drips down. One drop at time. Dragging and blurring the colors that marks the edges that separate all of us. A drop too heavy, a drop too light. And as it splatters into smaller drops. My love and my peace are droplets fallen far apart. My happiness and my people, my dreams andContinue reading ““Undone” – Nayana Nair”