“Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair

… In rooms like thesemy hollowness becomes real. It becomes an ant that won’t stop walkingwith its tiny feet across the span of my hands,a felling that won’t rest. It feels like the rainthat falls and fills everything before me.Leaving me alone. Alone to think of you. And I.again I find in you a hope?aContinue reading ““Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair”

“On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair

On the tapered ends of my lipswhen I found your lips nestled near mine,I asked“Is this love? Is this your love?”and you answered “Obviously not.”So I told my heart to grow up.Growing up was the only waynot to hurt. On the spring infested roads,I found your handon my melting waist. On a nameless cold rainyContinue reading ““On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair”

“Assignment” – Nayana Nair

There was that pile of paperI could never keep safe.The crossed out, always crossed out words,words always out of order,words turned beautifulonly because they dissolvedin my frustration.Only because now I cannot read themwithout effort.I must make something out of themsomething that couldn’t possibly be mine. The blue ink dripping,forming planets on unexpected letters,forming planets onContinue reading ““Assignment” – Nayana Nair”

“Nothing to do with love” – Nayana Nair

I want this sadness that dissolves in me,that never goes away,never stands apart from me,never looks me in the face with questionsor even answers.I am ready to take vow with this heartbreakas long as it feels like you,promises eventually to replace you,as long as my love is greater than you.I do nor have to missContinue reading ““Nothing to do with love” – Nayana Nair”

“Red Gates” – Nayana Nair

I drowned the flowersone by one.The poison of beautynow runs through the riverson this land,they fill his backyardin every season of rain.A child with his smiledrowns another boat of dreams,the flood is a field of paper,the flood is all that is left of me.She stares into me,waiting for a reflection to surface.She walks into metoContinue reading ““Red Gates” – Nayana Nair”

“Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair

She just laughed and said“you are not really intelligent,you know that right?”as she packed her bag,making space for her only notebook, with difficulty.I wonder if she really needs all those the things.She is not a careful person,I know that because her list of priorities is horizontal-everything is important, everything is equally dispensable.I hear a songContinue reading ““Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair”

“your hesitations haunt me” – Nayana Nair

there was a gap of few secondsthat felt like hours which you took to give the answerthat i expected for us – the answer that maybe only i would love. but the seconds, that you cannot answer for,have gone away with our comfortable warmth. why it is that the smallest thingthat makes me question yourContinue reading ““your hesitations haunt me” – Nayana Nair”

“To the one who who couldn’t change me” – Nayana Nair

The answers I hearare never the words you speak. The answers I hear answers arepoorly dubbed clips of proven cruelties and truththat only a stranger to my pain could utter,that only you could utter. It is the thoughtlessnesswith which you try to pronounce hope with ease in front of me,even when you know the namesContinue reading ““To the one who who couldn’t change me” – Nayana Nair”

“ellipsis” – Nayana Nair

i can’t…i just can’t bring myself to remove all the ellipsis…that i leave behind in my sentences. i know they look shabby… as if i don’t know how to create proper sentences…as if i have never heard of a comma. i am told it is something similar to ending and pausing sentences with “you know”.Continue reading ““ellipsis” – Nayana Nair”

“your desire would burn away” – Nayana Nair

i read this on a torn sheet of paperthat was lying, waiting (possibly for me?)in that empty hall, that on a normal day has never known empty.and being who i am, this again had to be an easy answer from a higher power.being who i was i believed that the confusion in my mindrocked everyContinue reading ““your desire would burn away” – Nayana Nair”