“The owners of my mind” – Nayana Nair

I finally sit with people who have owned my mind,who have left it astray,who have come back at inopportune momentsto claim a bit of my peace for their own heart. They say guilt keeps them awake at nights.They say they need me once again.They need to see the smile of another victimto convince themselves thatContinue reading ““The owners of my mind” – Nayana Nair”

“As Little as Possible” – Nayana Nair

the broken have found love again. again they will forget all that they promised they would never forget. they talk of hobbies, talk of news,talk of things that are easy to agree upon.they talk about breaking down walls at lunchand stay awake at night getting rid of every part of themselvesthat could spoil this love.Continue reading ““As Little as Possible” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (13)” – Nayana Nair

i did all that i must doand now no one asks me what’s next.thankfully,no one burdens me with with their dreams anymore.i am no longer a possible candidate for the worst,for taking over the misfortune of my mother’s life.i no longer have to worry about hurting my parents bybeing like them or living like them.thankfully,whatContinue reading ““What I Remember (13)” – Nayana Nair”

“Who I am” – Nayana Nair

I will spend some nights listening to why I am not the one you can love. I will keep you awake and keep myself in pain till I get this list down, till I memorize it all, till “who I am” just means “what you can’t love”. I daydream about how I will leave you.Continue reading ““Who I am” – Nayana Nair”

“Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair

You loved well. I loved well. The saddest days we have made it though are proof that. We have survived through the worst, it is just that we don’t know how to love each other in peace. How to keep our love alive when there are no enemies threatening it. The calendars change, the furnitureContinue reading ““Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair”

“Invasion” – Nayana Nair

What makes us lose our sleep is the fear of each other that keeps us awake, keeps us on guard all our life. If it was just slaughter that we feared we could still calm our nerves. But we fear an invasion followed by abandonment, that makes it that much more difficult to overcome theContinue reading ““Invasion” – Nayana Nair”

“Farewell” – Nayana Nair

The sunrise that I always wanted to see slipped out of my hand and eyes once again. Though my heart feared falling asleep, my eyes could not longer bear to stay awake. And I found myself in the only place where I can’t fool myself by smiling hard. As my mind deserted me here, asContinue reading ““Farewell” – Nayana Nair”

“Another Candle” – Nayana Nair

I have been awake since the storm started. My eyes won’t close from the fear of losing this world. Even if, all this world gives me is reason to hide, reason to lay awake. Sometimes enduring a storm. Sometimes waiting for it. I light another candle to burn away my sleep. I light another partContinue reading ““Another Candle” – Nayana Nair”

“Orange Light” – Nayana Nair

Some nights the pillow is too fluffy. Some nights the pillow is too hard. And I have no option but to stay awake and look at the orange light of streetlamp outside my window. It is not the pillow, nor the light that keeps me awake. It is just the side effect of trying tooContinue reading ““Orange Light” – Nayana Nair”