“Picturing You” – Nayana Nair

… I am not lonely. I am just fond of imagining you. I prick my heart with the thought of youand it bleeds ,but only a bit. Enough to show that it is alive.Enough to tell me to go on. It beats for youand bleeds for me. That is how fair my love is.And thisContinue reading ““Picturing You” – Nayana Nair”

“but the waves run away from me” – Nayana Nair

the trees sway behind methey tower and droop and dieabove the cold parked cars.i hear the soundsthat i couldn’t till last nightit is music to my earsand “warnings of ruin” to my mind.the green monster, the metal carriage,and their lonely helpless masterface the direction of ocean.if we were bigger,if everything before us could melt,if iContinue reading ““but the waves run away from me” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 3)” – Nayana Nair

#the right time to answer the door The doorbell has been ringing for hours. I wish I could say it was annoying. But it is not. A part of me is happy to know that you are out there. That you know that sooner or later I would answer this door. It has been longContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 3)” – Nayana Nair”

“Far from Truth” – Nayana Nair

For someone who speaks so muchI mean so little of what I say.I let myself be swayed too easilyand too often.I foolishly take my passing feelings and poor judgmentsas some eternal truth,when they are not. Today, I may talk of my wait for this sorrow to leave my life. Tomorrow, I will claim it asContinue reading ““Far from Truth” – Nayana Nair”

Bitter Wind

“Forsythia“, Billy Collins I would rather not look around the next corner of the year to see how this will die, its light going out, its bare, arching branches waving like whips in the bitter wind. So I sit facing the past, letting my feet dangle over the wall, beating time against stone with myContinue reading “Bitter Wind”

“Eventually” – Nayana Nair

This jail, that I could not break out of, it had bars made of petals, ceilings lighted with memories and under my feet the hearts of people beating only by my love (or so I wanted to believe). It was the fragile nature of this confinement that made my escape impossible. And even though IContinue reading ““Eventually” – Nayana Nair”

“Conflict” – Nayana Nair

I have a habit of breaking promises especially when I mean to keep them. I have found I am no longer the one who made those promises. Know that when I see you my heart beats a little different now. There is a tinge of anger and blame that can only be felt for theContinue reading ““Conflict” – Nayana Nair”

“What you want” – Nayana Nair

Your heartbeat whispers the sounds and songs that I lost to life. Here by your side I find myself again. In this embrace I can finally heal. But sadly this is not the girl you want. So I say, “I’ll be broken, if you like me broken.”