“Nothing to do with love” – Nayana Nair

I want this sadness that dissolves in me,that never goes away,never stands apart from me,never looks me in the face with questionsor even answers.I am ready to take vow with this heartbreakas long as it feels like you,promises eventually to replace you,as long as my love is greater than you.I do nor have to missContinue reading ““Nothing to do with love” – Nayana Nair”

“name my heart” – Nayana Nair

i draw a white lighton another perfect windowwith my broken hand the clouds have gatheredfor memy blue stream must be dying inside i speak my softest tonguei lift my woundsto show my untainted heart stay on the waves in my eyestouch the only vein in my bodythat knows how to hope, i beg but theyContinue reading ““name my heart” – Nayana Nair”

“mornings break us apart again” – Nayana Nair

she traced the light on my chestpulled out everything that stung-the swings, my feet,the shadow i decided no longer to play with. the comparision table of veins and arteriescopied into my notebook.the eraser and pencil that helped me documentin those tables my lackings compared to everyone else. a page torn, and then another, and thenContinue reading ““mornings break us apart again” – Nayana Nair”

“Born Like This” – Nayana Nair

“i was born like this”, I lie,when I really want to say “the normal ones, the sane onesare surprisingly excellent at breaking anyone without any guilt whatsoever. i no longer have strengthto leave them, or beg them,or handle the repercussion of wanting them. i fear them only when i crythough i am not exactly sureContinue reading ““Born Like This” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (14)” – Nayana Nair

LOVE IS … hiding my smile when you walk towards metalking your name, just because i can(just to make sure that i can).feeling like a child when you call my name back.interrupting the meaningful silence with pointless debates, pretending to sulk, acting cute,being happy to act like idiots for once.wasting away time,walking towards nowherebecause thatContinue reading ““What I Remember (14)” – Nayana Nair”

“Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair

I tell myself again and again what it is that I really want as I force myself to sit there and listen to every word that diminishes the efforts I have put in my dream. It makes me feel strong and pathetic at the same time, that my wanting too little could also be somethingContinue reading ““Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair”

“Beg ” – Nayana Nair

Everything I look at is sweet impression of your younger self playing in the garden of my heart. The shrads from this broken world stuck in everything around me. Why is it that when I look at a bus stop, when I look at the sky, when I look at the chairs, when I lookContinue reading ““Beg ” – Nayana Nair”

“What went wrong” – Nayana Nair

Let us not delve into the question of what went wrong. I have loved heartache even as I was trying to run away from it. I have missed the mess my life was when I was granted the calm that I begged for. Everything I wanted could never soothe my wounds. Everything I have lovedContinue reading ““What went wrong” – Nayana Nair”