You stand beside the fire” – Nayana Nair

In the rubble with nerves hiding sparks,in the nest of sleeping explosives,again it is you.Again you are here to prove somethingby doing something unasked for. You build a place for warm tea,for all our shivering ghosts to haunt.You place the chairs that are not chairsbut buckets that cannot hold anything now.There are chairs that areContinue reading “You stand beside the fire” – Nayana Nair”

“the darkness that she sings for me” – Nayana Nair

i am in lovewith the woman who sings andbecomes the backgroundof my every night. i like to listen to her voiceas she takes my every secondkeeps it out of my reach,teaches me some really suspicious waysto keep myself safe from the her demons. she glows in the darkness that she sewsonly for me,for me toContinue reading ““the darkness that she sings for me” – Nayana Nair”

“Creature of Claw” – Nayana Nair

How long should I bleedfor the one who holds the knife. I pluck another flower of kindnessto appease the one who won’t even smile for me.He looks at it and tells me the tested foolproof waysto kill this useless plant that grows in meand cracks his shield. He tells me he will love me moreifContinue reading ““Creature of Claw” – Nayana Nair”

“Cheap Literature” – Nayana Nair

Don’t ask which part of meare easier to love. I have tried so hardto become someone who cannot be be lovedwithout effort or tears. My faith in love,my faith in those who loveor it’s absenceis not so difficult to explain. Clue: Every pop song that leaves you in shambles.Clue: The books that you call cheapContinue reading ““Cheap Literature” – Nayana Nair”

“Dissociate” – Nayana Nair

my other headbleeds and falls offas does my bloody knife i can no longer call myself a victim of lifenow that my sin is set in stone few more hours for the sun to risefew more hours i must bear the company of my facein few more hours the world will love menow that iContinue reading ““Dissociate” – Nayana Nair”

“Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair

my feet relentlessly insiston burning themselvesfor the sake of summer mood. i wear a shirt too big for me.a wear a smile a bit too small.i wear the worry of my parents on my neck. i feel their fearwhen i smile back at strangers.i pretend to be the sand that no one can hurt.i pretendContinue reading ““Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair”

“Inversion” – Nayana Nair

When I stand near you,I want to believe that we are standing together.That our hearts being mirror imagesmeans something more.Mirror images…‘Lateral inversion’ they called it, I recall.We feel similar only when facing each other.But when we talk of this world,when we eat from our own broken plates,when we tell each others directions,when we see eachContinue reading ““Inversion” – Nayana Nair”

“i don’t react well to kindness” – Nayana Nair

the river behind meis filled with regretof swallowing the sunthat she once claimed to love.she is like me,so i thought she’d understand. but she holds my hands, refuses to give me upwhen i try to find outhow much I can be filled.she fears my temperamentand the dangerous things i incessantly wish for. i want toContinue reading ““i don’t react well to kindness” – Nayana Nair”

“Precious” – Nayana Nair

A pane breakssomewhere far away.Everyone precious to mestays there-this place called ‘far away’.So these things I must record,these things I must remember “it could have been a stranger”,I try to reason.But it is of no avail.I am afraid that the life broken just now,must be too close to mefor my heart to bleed so,for myContinue reading ““Precious” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair

I think of the clothes that are too tight or too loose for me,of my skin that doesn’t like me the way it used to.How the mirrors in my home are hidden by the growing towers of books.I wonder what this says about me?I think of the fear that I feel when I am alone,theContinue reading ““What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair”