“See Things” – Nayana Nair

If I could see fartherthan my will, my half-blindness allows,would I have wanted to see things for what they are?Probably not. Or maybe just wondering rather than wantingis a truer start.

“Undying” – Nayana Nair

The brightest star of my childhood dreamssits on the set of a sitcomand tells jokes about me.He wins few hearts and breaks few guitars-becomes an artist of some kind.He fills the screens with the love he only spoke about.I become a bit more irrational in his storiessometimes so much, that I feel no wonderwhen heContinue reading ““Undying” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair

It is time to go out into the world. It is time that I try hard to get my heart brokenand pretend that it is happening for the first time, to claim that I trusted blindlyknowing it is not something I am capable of, to fit my body awkwardlyin the kind of life that peopleContinue reading ““What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair”

“Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair

my feet relentlessly insiston burning themselvesfor the sake of summer mood. i wear a shirt too big for me.a wear a smile a bit too small.i wear the worry of my parents on my neck. i feel their fearwhen i smile back at strangers.i pretend to be the sand that no one can hurt.i pretendContinue reading ““Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair”

“Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair

the ones we sign our valentine cards to,the ones we tie ourselves to for lifewait for us to die (or some form of death) to become free.their heart is full of love – only not for us. they tiptoe at night to bury their crimesand demand honesty only when it suits what they have inContinue reading ““Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair”

“Help Me” – Nayana Nair

Close my eyes with your gentle kiss.Help me out a bit.Help me build a better lie.Help me anyway that love allows.Help me find a way to livewithout hurting myself or others.Help metill I become blindor till I learn to acceptall that is wrong with this worldand all that is wrong with me. Close my eyeswithContinue reading ““Help Me” – Nayana Nair”

“I keep looking for you” – Nayana Nair

I am floating towards youagainst my own will.I struggle and looseagainst my fate,against what my heart loves.I am floating in your eyesin spite of all my flaws.I am happythat you love me. I am floating again,floating away from youand my heart has forgotten the love I had for you.But I fearsomewhere in me your areContinue reading ““I keep looking for you” – Nayana Nair”

“Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair

the sun is so much brighter than it used to be it makes me wonder if i remembers my days correctly. has it always been like this, when did my eyes start creating its own darkness. (is there a word for it? like there is a word for plants creating food from the drops ofContinue reading ““Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair”

“Your Cactus” – Nayana Nair

i never learnt about gardening, nor about patience, nor about caring,nor about looking after anything that doesn’t speak, doesn’t complain,doesn’t tell me in plain words how i am terrible, how i mistakes make meeven if those mistakes are not mine. i wish i was blind, i wish i was mute, i wish i was theContinue reading ““Your Cactus” – Nayana Nair”

“Laughing it off” – Nayana Nair

I jokingly said that I would hate it to be someone else- someone who would have to suffer me. But before my face realizes what my heart meant, where it becomes apparent in my eyes that I am nowhere near recovery, before I panic at being taken seriously, someone cuts me off with laughter, withContinue reading ““Laughing it off” – Nayana Nair”