“the constant part of love” – Nayana Nair

i remember your hands and their warmthlike i rememberthe versions of methat were easier to live with (or so i think).the colors, their unnatural brightness,the scent of acetone always lingeringon the tips of your fingertips,always hiding a sad rainbow (just my type).always a star that you forgot to rub and break,shined on your skin.under myContinue reading ““the constant part of love” – Nayana Nair”

“Easy Girl” – Nayana Nair

in my cramped worldyou find a place for yourself. you become one with all the bright thingsthat i collect at the cost of breaking myself. as you smile, i wonderwhether you have a thing for girlswho have forgotten the taste of truth. i wish you do.i would like to love you once,before you learn toContinue reading ““Easy Girl” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (22)” – Nayana Nair

Was it 5 years ago, or 6that we all sat togetherlooking at the bright beginningof another series of setbacksthat we were becoming.The coldness of the wood,the ruffle of papers, the moment beforewe learned to truly hate ourselves. I miss that. As we stood waiting in linefor something to take awayeverything we were just beginning toContinue reading ““What I Remember (22)” – Nayana Nair”

“I always fall behind” – Nayana Nair

All the lights that were meant to light the way,end up looking like spotlights fragmenting the world.Fragments so beautifulthat I never bothered with moving towards the place I was meant to go;that I sit here, saying goodbye to peoplewho hope to see me wherever they will end up at. But we won’t be seeing eachContinue reading ““I always fall behind” – Nayana Nair”

“When they get to know” – Nayana Nair

There was this one girlwho was too bright.I liked her a lot.She was a little more loud, little more caring,laughed a little more longer.As if that ‘little more’ was her essence, was a rule she couldn’t break.I liked how I could see what she was without that ‘little more’,that all of them would never knowContinue reading ““When they get to know” – Nayana Nair”

“I Close Another Window” – Nayana Nair

i close the window that must be closeda hope that must be dropped.the flame of love, the hand that holds me,scalds me, takes me to new places,makes me sit under a trees with another unusual bright fruits,asks me to cry like i did before,paints me, calls me beautiful,feeds me compliments, but just enough that myContinue reading ““I Close Another Window” – Nayana Nair”

“Unconsumed” – Nayana Nair

I hear sweet laughterfrom far away (from the floor above).Leftover light from that bright world falls on me.But it is not mine.and it seems I am not allowedto love anything that is not mine. It seems no one can be mineuntil I constantly try to please them,chain them to me, make them dependent on me,doContinue reading ““Unconsumed” – Nayana Nair”

“Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair

the sun is so much brighter than it used to be it makes me wonder if i remembers my days correctly. has it always been like this, when did my eyes start creating its own darkness. (is there a word for it? like there is a word for plants creating food from the drops ofContinue reading ““Meet me on a sunless day” – Nayana Nair”

“Who I am” – Nayana Nair

I will spend some nights listening to why I am not the one you can love. I will keep you awake and keep myself in pain till I get this list down, till I memorize it all, till “who I am” just means “what you can’t love”. I daydream about how I will leave you.Continue reading ““Who I am” – Nayana Nair”