“5 mins away” – Nayana Nair

As she places her coffee cup on the table,her eyes sting and ribs hurtto see the beautiful vase of her lifedearly holding onto the oldest withered flowers of her life.Flowers were not meant to do this,she knew.She also knewshe need not be like this,things need not be this way.The market is just 5 minutes away.WhenContinue reading ““5 mins away” – Nayana Nair”

“Agreeable” – Nayana Nair

Once I didn’t feel less for wanting less.But now my ambitions are the measure of my capabilities. Now as I try to get/buy/copy a new agreeable dream,I am instructed to be ‘unapologetically me’,apologising only to myselfevery time I smile in a life that I didn’t wantand can never love.

“The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 1)” – Nayana Nair

#the feelings that I can’t own The nature of regrets that I have in my heart, the flowers that grow at the end of this knife, the watches that have run out of battery but pretend to have stopped time. I have so much space in me for things like these. I have so manyContinue reading ““The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 1)” – Nayana Nair”

“Too Good and Too Sweet” – Nayana Nair

love? no, i suffer from no such thing. even if i do, that is an easy illness. there are delusions that i can buy that can ease all these pains of affection. if nothing else, my lover and my heart knows all the lies, that can put me to sleep even when my world burns.Continue reading ““Too Good and Too Sweet” – Nayana Nair”

“Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair

Even a harmless silence on your part brings me down to tears. I act in pathetic way trying to get you back, trying to buy your love sometime using sympathy, sometimes throwing tantrums, sometimes by changing myself, by changing you, at times pretending that I am done with you hoping that you try to stopContinue reading ““Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair”

“Small Cost” – Nayana Nair

I remember nodding along to what you said. It would have been similar to how I agreed with everyone who were obviously wrong, but with you I agreed not for peace but for happiness- that I realized can be bought for something as small as silence. It sounds less crude when called it consideration, whichContinue reading ““Small Cost” – Nayana Nair”

“New Limitations” – Nayana Nair

I tended to all the brokenness that now remained on your skin after they found you at places where they didn’t want you to be. I hoped it was only your skin that was red and sore. The more silent you sat, the more my heart worried. As you tired to smile for me IContinue reading ““New Limitations” – Nayana Nair”

“More Boxes” – Nayana Nair

Everyday I buy more boxes and more trunks, to stow away the harmless opinions and stories of mine that have never left my mouth, and have never known how the cold air of this world feels like. They are better off not knowing how they are going to be broken and crushed till nothing ofContinue reading ““More Boxes” – Nayana Nair”

“Far too valuable” – Nayana Nair

My plate and my half eaten meal, they remind you of all the times when I have wasted things, far too valuable. The trinkets that I treasure. The coins that cannot buy anything. The souvenirs that have lost meaning, the people without memories. This city in my mind, I keep alive by not breathing. YouContinue reading ““Far too valuable” – Nayana Nair”