“I let him drive” – Nayana Nair

I roll down my windowhoping for the first timethat I knew how to driveso that I wouldn’t have a confused witnessto my impulse of moving forward by a mileand falling down by a heartbeat. “Is everything alright?”,he asks me too often.I don’t bother to calm him down by saying ‘yes’as I was doing an hourContinue reading ““I let him drive” – Nayana Nair”

“As the fire dies out” – Nayana Nair

After a long time, I feel like walking towards the calm unknown.The wildness in me that I had thrown away,is waiting for me.They were always waitingto tell me all the gossips of stars and fishes,how lost and alone they both feltto know that blue they had in commonwere totally different worlds. The clothes that madeContinue reading ““As the fire dies out” – Nayana Nair”

“End Our Tiring Travel” – Nayana Nair

Are we just each others excuse, just a means to tie up this mind to a worry and to a calmness made of flesh. To end our tiring travel between the states of “living-with-wavering-doubt-of-whether-to-exist-or-not” to “searching-for-another-temporary-purpose-to-act-as-reins-to-our-heart-going-out-of-control”. What happens when we are no longer a good enough anchor for each other? What happens when we noContinue reading ““End Our Tiring Travel” – Nayana Nair”

“The Cold Returns” – Nayana

The steps I walk and the fate I follow all run into faces that somehow already know all the reason to despise me. Why is it that walking in these shadows calms my heart and brings it pain at the same time. Is this how life is to be lived? I myself this all theContinue reading ““The Cold Returns” – Nayana”

“Picture Book” – Nayana Nair

Leafing through the pages of my picture book of dreams, he smiled to himself and said to me- I can make all of them come true for sure, you can fill more pages, you can dream more. The mirror with my face lost in the light, lost in thought of love soon to arrive, whileContinue reading ““Picture Book” – Nayana Nair”

“Blue” – Nayana Nair

You once sat on my shore. You fell in love with the water in which ships, treasures and lives were lost. The same ocean is taking you in today. You told me, the drops of sea reamining on your hands yearn to touch my eyes again. If so, why wasn’t I taken away? Why amContinue reading ““Blue” – Nayana Nair”

“What went wrong” – Nayana Nair

Let us not delve into the question of what went wrong. I have loved heartache even as I was trying to run away from it. I have missed the mess my life was when I was granted the calm that I begged for. Everything I wanted could never soothe my wounds. Everything I have lovedContinue reading ““What went wrong” – Nayana Nair”

“Hate You” – Nayana Nair

I saw you soft as the clouds of heaven. I felt you covered in the condensed drops of love that the whole world breathes out. And I hated you for it. I saw your skin marked with me. I saw the cracks in your smile covered in my kisses. I saw my reflection in yourContinue reading ““Hate You” – Nayana Nair”

“What I do best” – Nayana Nair

There is a fierce calmness that holds me together even when I think that I will fall apart. Seems like falling apart is not that easy for those who lived in pieces that they never knew they had. So I will turn deaf to the words of love that presumes that it knows me. SoContinue reading ““What I do best” – Nayana Nair”

“Belonging” – Nayana Nair

The amount of persuasion it takes to force oneself, into believing the delusion that belonging somewhere will solve all issues, will calm the turmoil of all unexplained emotions. That we can belong somewhere just because we want to.