“Only Weight” – Nayana Nair

She said“The moment I glaceat the empty parking space in the sky,I wait for you to appearwith the plastic wings and your boyish grin.” The sky does that to me too.I look at the drooping branchthe sky holds in its mouth,I wait for you to tear your most beautiful dressat the knees, your tiny tiaraContinue reading ““Only Weight” – Nayana Nair”

“Reduced” – Nayana Nair

One of these daysI might just stop loving youand that might just break me.But I feelI might be less cold,less reckless,and less patheticin that sort of breaking.I want to be reduced to myself for once.For once I don’t want to carry aroundthe magnificence of undelivered love on my shoulderand stand outside stores with doors tooContinue reading ““Reduced” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair

It is time to go out into the world. It is time that I try hard to get my heart brokenand pretend that it is happening for the first time, to claim that I trusted blindlyknowing it is not something I am capable of, to fit my body awkwardlyin the kind of life that peopleContinue reading ““What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair”

“Not So Bad” – Nayana Nair

he sings the most beautiful song.so beautifulthat the sky becomes a reflection of the heartthat he can barely carry in himself.the words on his lipsthey break, they sound different,feel different,they sound like the first cry of a baby-the violent coming to life.they run and collide and shatteragainst the rough indifferent surfaceof this dying world, aContinue reading ““Not So Bad” – Nayana Nair”

“Sandstorm” – Nayana Nair

The sandstorm is just another settingfor this story to continue.There are no trees in our desertthat could be broken.There are only lights that learn to flicker,there is only skin that knows what this wind carries,there are only roads that will drown. With half closed eyes you walk outto search for what you have left behind.WithContinue reading ““Sandstorm” – Nayana Nair”

“The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair

The wind is picking up.The white sand unlike watersinks everything too slowly.And so the shade less trees of eucalyptus become shadows that I learn to love.They become compass that knows no direction,but just piece this world to hold, the silent assurancethat I am not yet lost, though my eyes can’t tell. *** The wind isContinue reading ““The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair”

“Waiting for Winter” – Nayana Nair

if i carry a flower in my heart.if i could name this flower after myselfand i walk into rooms where i do not belongand tried to become a garden, become a springto all the orbs of winter walking past me,would they stop and look into my eyesand see the effort, the sincerity i am puttingtoContinue reading ““Waiting for Winter” – Nayana Nair”

“Ready to Break” – Nayana Nair

We are the mediocre television soapthat no one wants to see.We have learned to gulp down bland food, bland life.The books that get us jobs, get us friends, gets us love, we have learned to pay for it without bitterness. We adore the mania, the depression,the moments when we don’t want to think clear-that makesContinue reading ““Ready to Break” – Nayana Nair”

“Red Valley” – Nayana Nair

every red flowerthat couldn’t bloom,that was denied a spring,now grows inside us. we breathe to keep them aliveso their sky remains blueand they might know what tomorrow means. there is a weight on our tiny shouldersto carry voices that were once locked in vacuum,to do everything right,to build greenhouses by our words and intention. butContinue reading ““Red Valley” – Nayana Nair”

“On the saddest cloud” – Nayana Nair

Even when I insisted that I am fine without relying on you. Even when I tried to keep only my best version in your eyes.When I said I can solve my problems and if I can’t, I will learn to live with them; to never trouble yourself with what I suffer or how I suffer.Continue reading ““On the saddest cloud” – Nayana Nair”