“Wedding Photos” – Nayana Nair

It was like magicrunning the highlighter, the bright crayonover the sepia hands of her.She didn’t complain or cryas we ruined another photograph of hers,as we tried to hide the evidenceof her failed love, our failing life. We cut her out, moved her awayfrom the one who looked like us.We placed her side of story, herContinue reading ““Wedding Photos” – Nayana Nair”

“The eyes of my mother” – Nayana Nair

I planted the idea of a happy family,a happy tomorrow,into the eyes of my motherwith breaking tips of my pencilsagainst her granite eye lashes. I told her the story about the boywho is ever so sadbecause his parents didn’t care enough,who weeps on his empty birthdays,who weeps into my heart.I tell her I am notContinue reading ““The eyes of my mother” – Nayana Nair”

“Red Gates” – Nayana Nair

I drowned the flowersone by one.The poison of beautynow runs through the riverson this land,they fill his backyardin every season of rain.A child with his smiledrowns another boat of dreams,the flood is a field of paper,the flood is all that is left of me.She stares into me,waiting for a reflection to surface.She walks into metoContinue reading ““Red Gates” – Nayana Nair”

“Funny Look” – Nayana Nair

When I speak ofwhat I thought my life would be like,what I still want to be if I was not dying in my skin,they give me a funny look as if I am seeing things. And frankly I am seeing the only thingsthat give me hope.I am aware of their imaginary statusand how separated byContinue reading ““Funny Look” – Nayana Nair”

“piano” – Nayana Nair

years from nowi hope my living roomhas a space for a lovely piano.i hope my fingerswould play something beautiful on it.that here i would smileand not know of the passing time.that i would learn to love my wallsas much as the world that stands on the other side.as my child misses me, cries for me,triesContinue reading ““piano” – Nayana Nair”

“The last brick is in my heart” – Nayana Nair

In every country, in every city,on every streetstands a home that could have been ours.I am a daydreamer like thatAs I passed the house with an always crying child,as I passed the house with the overwhelming smell of incense,as I passed the house with singing reality shows played on repeatI only thought of the lifeContinue reading ““The last brick is in my heart” – Nayana Nair”

“how storms fade” – Nayana Nair

twenty-six steps away from the cold end,we stand together as if we are both looking at a foe we must defeat together.a child passes us by with a yellow balloon.how misplaced it seems, this childin this place made of storms. this is something i don’t want to do.our steps will fade into the deep endContinue reading ““how storms fade” – Nayana Nair”

“Blue Rant” – Nayana Nair

I have heard many saythat blue is saddest color.But what I find more sad ishow almost everyone I knowknows how to imagine/recall a sadnessat the mention of this color. I imagine this-all of us,millions of us standing in one huge roomand someone mentioning this color,this harmless color. I imagine our collective sadness, our collective agony.IContinue reading ““Blue Rant” – Nayana Nair”

“All your cold dark songs” – Nayana Nair

as i get inside the crowded bus,a phone rings.a ringtone just like yours. has the world shrunk to the sizeof the tragedy we created,that i find you like this? i know it is not you,but it could be.so i do not turn back.it could be you,so i try not to cry. this is not wherewalkingContinue reading ““All your cold dark songs” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (14)” – Nayana Nair

LOVE IS … hiding my smile when you walk towards metalking your name, just because i can(just to make sure that i can).feeling like a child when you call my name back.interrupting the meaningful silence with pointless debates, pretending to sulk, acting cute,being happy to act like idiots for once.wasting away time,walking towards nowherebecause thatContinue reading ““What I Remember (14)” – Nayana Nair”