“We are not made for any season” – Nayana Nair

The cold that we depended onto hide our heartsdidn’t last long.First our warmth, then our fire,then our wild will-one by one they convinced uswhy we need them, that without themwe’ll never actually live.One by oneeverything we didn’t want to bestood facing us, climbing higher and fasteron our ladders out of our hell.I kept repeating myContinue reading ““We are not made for any season” – Nayana Nair”

“Black Pond” – Nayana Nair

As I climb,my steps remembered the shoes I once hadthe ones that didn’t hurt so muchand how hands of mine that hacked through themjust to become my own person,some sort of grown-up.I climbed over the yellow soft dressand the light that it caughtjust to get this, this body that looks held togetherbut is not(this bodyContinue reading ““Black Pond” – Nayana Nair”

“the broken-hearted” – Nayana Nair

the broken-hearted know no lovefor anything or anyonethat is not the one breaking their heart.they see through you.even when they say hellothey almost get your name wrong,you can tell it from the look in their eyes.they drink and fill every room with songsthat were not so hard to bearwhen they were just noises that radioContinue reading ““the broken-hearted” – Nayana Nair”

“On My Own” – Nayana Nair

Once the shade of the shutters are rolled down,once I am left on my own,reason and explanation rush in,try to cling and climb up the cracks of my heart,and the folds of my brain,trying desperately to stop meto reach out, to find mein the fog of fear. But I am already far ahead,my hands reachContinue reading ““On My Own” – Nayana Nair”

“I Hope Not” – Nayana Nair

I stood at the bottom of the stairs, stones climbing on each other as my eyes touch their edges rain dripping from the green slowly taking them down. Soon I started to wonder as I always do, when I see a place I have never been to. In the days I had not known youContinue reading ““I Hope Not” – Nayana Nair”

“Can’t do this alone” – Nayana Nair

Hold me back from loosing myself to the the slow pain that reaches from within me spiraling up to any light it can see. Pushing me, climbing over me. Not caring. Needing not to care, while my body moves from one breaking world to other, from one uncertain gaze to another. As I read myContinue reading ““Can’t do this alone” – Nayana Nair”

“Sleeve of Silk” – Nayana Nair

An ornament blue that reminded me of your eyes. The sleeve of silk that had finally felt like mine. The black of my eyes, the blood of my lips. They took it away one by one. While you looked on almost happy to have avoided my fate. My life became colored with a dazzling redContinue reading ““Sleeve of Silk” – Nayana Nair”

“Climb” – Nayana Nair

Three steps materialize in front of me every day. Step 1 : You tell me how you love me. Step 2 : I believe you. Step 3: I realize love is not enough. Love is not cute always I am losing too much to cherish the love in your heart After that last step, IContinue reading ““Climb” – Nayana Nair”