"Ports" – Nayana Nair

a blue cloudy sky over a banana plantation.the only word to be heard – rebellion.someone is crying far away.another round of bullets leave the shaking handsof the one who can’t seem to stop crying.now he must die just like me.he rests his bloody head and its murky thoughts on me.in this last afternoon of myContinue reading “"Ports" – Nayana Nair”

“Dissociate” – Nayana Nair

my other headbleeds and falls offas does my bloody knife i can no longer call myself a victim of lifenow that my sin is set in stone few more hours for the sun to risefew more hours i must bear the company of my facein few more hours the world will love menow that iContinue reading ““Dissociate” – Nayana Nair”

“Hello?” – Nayana Nair

hello?can you help me?can you tell me which way to go,which part of me to burnto reach the dumping groundwhere lay all the skins that humans have ever shed? i have been living in my dreams for quite some time,where i am the old-mesurrounded by my old-family, old-friends, old-strangers. dreams that i can no longerContinue reading ““Hello?” – Nayana Nair”

“This is where we part” – Nayana Nair

It pains me to say thisbut I can live without you.So remember my crueltyand forget me as easilyas I have cast you aside. -x- You look better without my shadowand my life is easier without your light.Not everything in our life is about love.We are more than what our hearts want.We are more than whomContinue reading ““This is where we part” – Nayana Nair”

“The Better That We Want”- Nayana Nair

Once we are done with the ritual of tea, as I leave the room with his cup and mine, I leave behind my shadow with him. That is his favorite part of his evening and he is all too happy to talk to a quieter me. He feels my shadow is somehow better than me.Continue reading ““The Better That We Want”- Nayana Nair”

“Missing and wanting what lies forgotten” – Nayana Nair

For long I have lived avoiding a lot in life. The sting of disappointment. The pointless chatter that becomes noise, laughter, a habit. A lovely company. The colors that didn’t suit me, colors that I loved just the same. But now I miss the life in my heart and the pain that made skies andContinue reading ““Missing and wanting what lies forgotten” – Nayana Nair”

“Another Song for You” – Nayana Nair

I will make you yet another song that you will unfailingly forget, but these are not for you to remember me anyway. Only dip your tired bleeding feet into these gentle waters of my heart. Soak in the words that you deserve to hear. And then you can again go on that path, that callsContinue reading ““Another Song for You” – Nayana Nair”

“Friends?!” – Nayana Nair

Let me give you company on your afternoons and let me think of things I would rather listen to, while you talk. Let me open my mouth to keep you close with a secret and I will watch as you cut my string of words and remind me of who you are. Let me forgeContinue reading ““Friends?!” – Nayana Nair”

“Playlist” – Nayana Nair

I go through my playlist, looking for all the songs that like-crazed people have written for me and for lonely nights as these. This voice of stranger that sings my pain takes me back to this same bed and same sorrow somewhere in the past that I want to loose. Someone sits beside me yetContinue reading ““Playlist” – Nayana Nair”

“Coffee Shop” – Nayana Nair

I am sipping my 27th cup of coffee waiting for the shop to get crowded, so people will not eye me with suspicion or pity. So I can be in company of people who have nowhere to go, like me. For whom, home is just a place you run away from. I wait for theContinue reading ““Coffee Shop” – Nayana Nair”