“On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair

On the tapered ends of my lipswhen I found your lips nestled near mine,I asked“Is this love? Is this your love?”and you answered “Obviously not.”So I told my heart to grow up.Growing up was the only waynot to hurt. On the spring infested roads,I found your handon my melting waist. On a nameless cold rainyContinue reading ““On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair”

“Now I cannot hate myself” – Nayana Nair

But now I am notme anymore.Now I cannot hate myselflike I used to before.Liking myself was never option,for me anyway.If only I could be one personwith a constant heart,maybe then I could haveunderstood myself with enough time,could have found the heart to see myselfas a mere human that I am.But this,this possession of my bodyandContinue reading ““Now I cannot hate myself” – Nayana Nair”

“your desire would burn away” – Nayana Nair

i read this on a torn sheet of paperthat was lying, waiting (possibly for me?)in that empty hall, that on a normal day has never known empty.and being who i am, this again had to be an easy answer from a higher power.being who i was i believed that the confusion in my mindrocked everyContinue reading ““your desire would burn away” – Nayana Nair”

“The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair

The wind is picking up.The white sand unlike watersinks everything too slowly.And so the shade less trees of eucalyptus become shadows that I learn to love.They become compass that knows no direction,but just piece this world to hold, the silent assurancethat I am not yet lost, though my eyes can’t tell. *** The wind isContinue reading ““The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair”

“The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 1)” – Nayana Nair

#the feelings that I can’t own The nature of regrets that I have in my heart, the flowers that grow at the end of this knife, the watches that have run out of battery but pretend to have stopped time. I have so much space in me for things like these. I have so manyContinue reading ““The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 1)” – Nayana Nair”

“Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair

what is the use of loving youif you won’t speak less and be less for the sake of my ego,if you don’t have the proportions or face to brag about,if you won’t sleep with me,if you have “anxiety attacks” just when i am having fun(it is embarrassing, grow up)if my mom won’t like you,if youContinue reading ““Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair”

“Friends Again” – Nayana Nair

I want to see you before I forget you. I want to see if I can live without forgetting you. If I can avoid running away, if I can see you and not feel anything. * My love, my dependence on you, my feelings- you slept through all of it and now you do notContinue reading ““Friends Again” – Nayana Nair”

“Assumption” – Nayana Nair

We assumed that this fire that melts and hurts was safe in our hearts and no one would have to know, no one has to get burned, bear marks of this uncertain change that leaves us strangers to the ones we love. That makes it difficult to act like what we used to be, whenContinue reading ““Assumption” – Nayana Nair”

“Out all night”- Nayana Nair

Every night I saw that girl who roamed the dark streets with eyes filled with smoke and feet swaying with confusion and power. With clothes that reminded me of night sky. She was out all night to paint the world in the color of her black beautiful broken heart. The many masks of her hungContinue reading ““Out all night”- Nayana Nair”

“FRAGMENTED THOUGHTS (4)” – Nikitha Nair

We see ourselves , we see others and then we try to see ourselves in others. We rejoice when we find ourselves in others. But we moan for the loss of our individuality that we want and don’t want at the same time. We want to be lost and still want to be found. AContinue reading ““FRAGMENTED THOUGHTS (4)” – Nikitha Nair”