“one more person” – Nayana Nair

the one thing i can’t beis honest.though there are many other adjectivesthat stare at mefrom their balconies at midnightas i walk and crawl through the dirt road,through the pool of lights,crying and shouting and breaking dreamsin every home that i pass by.i hear them shaking their headswith disapproval and hopelessness.i look at their hazy shadowsandContinue reading ““one more person” – Nayana Nair”

“Before Alphabets” – Nayana Nair

Before knowing the alphabetsof your name or mine,I learnt to make you smile.I pluck another flower that makes me sneeze every timebut the silly pathetic me smiles as you smileas I crawl to youlosing balance,losing something similar to heart,as I dress you up in a mountain of petals I clenched too hardhoping you would neverContinue reading ““Before Alphabets” – Nayana Nair”

“Familiar” – Nayana Nair

“You have changed”, I want to say.But the more you change, the more familiar you get. Now you look like the girl who lied she is my friend.You look like the boy who crawled into my skinonly to confirm that I can feel the hurt just as he can.You look like my hand that lovesContinue reading ““Familiar” – Nayana Nair”

“The Noise of Empty Heart” – Nayana Nair

I close your heart.I stitch you backin a same haphazard wayI do almost everything in life.The same way I knocked down every clumsy fragile landmarkthat could have actually helped me at the end. From your mouth I have come to knowthat my hopes are tied to the throats of my saviors.That you are disgusted asContinue reading ““The Noise of Empty Heart” – Nayana Nair”

“Sweet Nothings” – Nayana Nair

i crawl into another embrace,scratch the surface of my fake loveto find something true.hopes.hopes.is this what they call hope?it must be. the coffee turns cold as my story ends.again i am wearing a skin i have stolen.the one breathing beside mehas a knack for sad stories recited by happy girls,of being a knight to oneContinue reading ““Sweet Nothings” – Nayana Nair”

“Flowers used to bloom here” – Nayana Nair

There is a wall of flowers before her.She looks at it as if they are a softer kind of firework,a firework in reverse,the colors leaving the petals, crawling deep into itself,leaving the color of the inevitable sad endingthat Nature always ends up falling for,after a series of boys who lied to her about a foreverinContinue reading ““Flowers used to bloom here” – Nayana Nair”

“Holding onto you” – Nayana Nair

As I use your ideals and words as the dressing to the greens that I hate, that I find hard to chew, I try to make myself understand you, convince myself that I am in wrong and I just know it yet. I remind myself that this time I can’t get it wrong, that thisContinue reading ““Holding onto you” – Nayana Nair”

“Only She Knows” – Nayana Nair

She left the door ajar and closed the curtains as she left, like she did so many things that I didn’t ask her to do. Like so many things I didn’t notice. Did I fear darkness of the room? Did I fear drifting into sleep no longer be sure that this body would continue breathing?Continue reading ““Only She Knows” – Nayana Nair”