“Carry Along” – Nayana Nair

I wonder if in every love what I really seek is just amnesia, a means to cut off myself from myself. So I would know more of world than just me. But it is all hopeless because even in my want to forget I carry my vanity along. I am only drawn to loves thatContinue reading ““Carry Along” – Nayana Nair”

“Aunt” – Nayana Nair

“Yes, I do have plans for my future my dear aunt.” I say, after I see her put her cup down and look at me with sympathy and resentment. “How can we not worry. It is your future we are talking about.” Actually, I never had these conversation, at least not with my aunt. IContinue reading ““Aunt” – Nayana Nair”

“Half” – Nayana Nair

I always assumed that people are working for what they want and I shouldn’t feel hurt from what they do when I was the one that got in their way. But often, like me, they are just working for something to know if they want it or not. And when they don’t, they move fromContinue reading ““Half” – Nayana Nair”

“Beyond Repair” – Nayana Nair

At some place in my life I realized that I was ruined beyond repair. And when I was done with all the crying, with all the cursing, and being therapist to the girl that I was . I grew up enough to know, that even if I can’t be what I was, I can stillContinue reading ““Beyond Repair” – Nayana Nair”

“Too late to care” – Nayana Nair

There are moments of indifference that once piled up seems more than the years I have lived. There are too many memories where I cannot see anyone but myself running around in a dark cave afraid of everything I bump into. Not knowing that even if I shout if anyone would hear, sometimes fearful ofContinue reading ““Too late to care” – Nayana Nair”

“Step into the memory” – Nayana Nair

I sing them a song in the voice that may soothe their hearts but fills me with feelings which are very similar to words like choke, suffocation and breathlessness. Though you might not think twice about it, I know what I have done. I have walked into the prison that my life was. But IContinue reading ““Step into the memory” – Nayana Nair”