“I let him drive” – Nayana Nair

I roll down my windowhoping for the first timethat I knew how to driveso that I wouldn’t have a confused witnessto my impulse of moving forward by a mileand falling down by a heartbeat. “Is everything alright?”,he asks me too often.I don’t bother to calm him down by saying ‘yes’as I was doing an hourContinue reading ““I let him drive” – Nayana Nair”

“On My Own” – Nayana Nair

Once the shade of the shutters are rolled down,once I am left on my own,reason and explanation rush in,try to cling and climb up the cracks of my heart,and the folds of my brain,trying desperately to stop meto reach out, to find mein the fog of fear. But I am already far ahead,my hands reachContinue reading ““On My Own” – Nayana Nair”

“New Organ” – Nayana Nair

All the words that I have gulped down are still inside me, never digested. They have found a space for themselves- A new throbbing organ that I cannot name, since I have never named my organs, someone else always does it for me (does it for all of us) and tells me through fading wordsContinue reading ““New Organ” – Nayana Nair”

“I Hope Not” – Nayana Nair

I stood at the bottom of the stairs, stones climbing on each other as my eyes touch their edges rain dripping from the green slowly taking them down. Soon I started to wonder as I always do, when I see a place I have never been to. In the days I had not known youContinue reading ““I Hope Not” – Nayana Nair”

“Remain the Same” – Nayana Nair

With every step that I take towards you, a part of me crumbles down to dust. Sometimes it is my smile, sometimes it is my fear. And yet when I am so close to you, when I have proved my love for you, I cannot ask you to do the same. I fear when youContinue reading ““Remain the Same” – Nayana Nair”

“Throw Myself”- Nayana Nair

There was no breath left to let out as I throw myself down the stairs. And every step that I tumble down, I feel breaking bones. Muscles and knuckles losing another bubble of a happy memory that I once thought would be enough to keep me alive. My broken thoughts rush into my blood intoContinue reading ““Throw Myself”- Nayana Nair”

“Dreams of Past” – Nayana Nair

He sat down and decided to write a list of all the things he had lost. He decided to look for them. He decided to find them the same way the dreams of past had found him. He put his pen down and stared at the wall ahead, stared till his eyes would hurt asContinue reading ““Dreams of Past” – Nayana Nair”

“Return” – Nayana Nair

The cry that was stuck in my throat turned out to be my name , that I had forgotten long ago. Probably when there were too many of me for me to hold, to make space for the all other names that I must never forget. How often have I let go of my ownContinue reading ““Return” – Nayana Nair”

“Undone” – Nayana Nair

The world drips down. One drop at time. Dragging and blurring the colors that marks the edges that separate all of us. A drop too heavy, a drop too light. And as it splatters into smaller drops. My love and my peace are droplets fallen far apart. My happiness and my people, my dreams andContinue reading ““Undone” – Nayana Nair”