“Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair

… In rooms like thesemy hollowness becomes real. It becomes an ant that won’t stop walkingwith its tiny feet across the span of my hands,a felling that won’t rest. It feels like the rainthat falls and fills everything before me.Leaving me alone. Alone to think of you. And I.again I find in you a hope?aContinue reading ““Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair”

You stand beside the fire” – Nayana Nair

In the rubble with nerves hiding sparks,in the nest of sleeping explosives,again it is you.Again you are here to prove somethingby doing something unasked for. You build a place for warm tea,for all our shivering ghosts to haunt.You place the chairs that are not chairsbut buckets that cannot hold anything now.There are chairs that areContinue reading “You stand beside the fire” – Nayana Nair”

“The door opens slowly” – Nayana Nair

I turned another cornerand walked into another housethat I knew nothing about.The owner, the god of this land stood thereoutside in the gardentelling a child how to create more beautiful loops,how to somersault,how to find more worms, more of everything.An adult placed like a talismanthat couldn’t keep meor what I bring with me away.He didn’tContinue reading ““The door opens slowly” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair

#enemy_of_hope On my way to you, there is a world that I must walk through. In the dense fog, through the things truer than us, the steps that I take are the heaviest, the decisions I make the most difficult. “Rows and flows of angel hairAnd ice cream castles in the airAnd feather canyons everyContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair”

“What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair

Another chanceto get our highfrom the powdered dust of dreams,from digging desperately, getting closer to the voiceof the demons we buried just yesterday,breaking nails and curfews tosave the skins we can’t live without. Another chanceat making a home,choosing colors for our ceilings,choosing the sides we will sleep on,choosing not to be the ones we haveContinue reading ““What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair

At a bus stand in front of mall (that I have never been to)I learnt how to wait and how to live with disappointmentswithout making a big deal of it. In the bracket of an hour, I grew smaller than I ever thought I could be.“this is what love does to you, this is whatContinue reading ““What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair”

“Undying” – Nayana Nair

The brightest star of my childhood dreamssits on the set of a sitcomand tells jokes about me.He wins few hearts and breaks few guitars-becomes an artist of some kind.He fills the screens with the love he only spoke about.I become a bit more irrational in his storiessometimes so much, that I feel no wonderwhen heContinue reading ““Undying” – Nayana Nair”

“Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair

You held me as I broke again and again.Your warm chest tried to hold me, to keep me alive.I couldn’t cry anymoreI felt indebted to you I loved you. You left me againin the crowd that you promised to protect me from.I called you, your number and you name-becoming useless to me with each passingContinue reading ““Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair”

“Give you away” – Nayana Nair

I wonderif the roles I playare really what I want to be.Or is it too late? Are my roles,my not-so-temporary voicesalready doingthe dreaming and the wantingin my placefor me? I see you and utter “love me”without thinking twice.Even if you findsome love left in you to give up,I wonderis there any “me” left in metoContinue reading ““Give you away” – Nayana Nair”

“one more person” – Nayana Nair

the one thing i can’t beis honest.though there are many other adjectivesthat stare at mefrom their balconies at midnightas i walk and crawl through the dirt road,through the pool of lights,crying and shouting and breaking dreamsin every home that i pass by.i hear them shaking their headswith disapproval and hopelessness.i look at their hazy shadowsandContinue reading ““one more person” – Nayana Nair”