“I have nothing of you” – Nayana Nair

I walked into troubles, into fogged minds,into friend circles that cultivated their alter egos on every meager piece of earth that they otherwise couldn’t plant their feet upon. I walked into crumbling cities, into impossible dreams,into the lifeless replicas of your heart-hoping you would come after me.But as time ate me upI just hoped thatContinue reading ““I have nothing of you” – Nayana Nair”

“Another Dream” – Nayana Nair

The world is still blue, but blue looks so beautiful today. Today there is no better you or better me that haunts us in our happy moments. So you can plan your solo journey on your old map while I get ready for my work. Let’s mark date on calendar, a place on earth whereContinue reading ““Another Dream” – Nayana Nair”

“The Usual” – Nayana Nair

Sure I don’t feel hollow for the every minute we don’t speak. Sure I don’t wait for your messages when I am with friends. And I don’t feel weak even when your anger breaks my back and your love breaks my heart. You told me something was wrong with me and this is not howContinue reading ““The Usual” – Nayana Nair”

“Book that I can’t read” – Nayana Nair

The book that I can’t read is not abandoned on the shelves has not been moved to the lowest rack because it is bad. But because so much of me is filled in it. So many words from my heart reside on those pages, that I am bound to question if this is the reasonContinue reading ““Book that I can’t read” – Nayana Nair”

“Edges” – Nayana Nair

There is so much to forget. To get along, to make peace with. To give up. Only so that I can continue to be entertained by the little happiness I have been given. There are so many egdes I must invent everyday so that I do not find this earth round, so that I doContinue reading ““Edges” – Nayana Nair”

“The Cold Returns” – Nayana

The steps I walk and the fate I follow all run into faces that somehow already know all the reason to despise me. Why is it that walking in these shadows calms my heart and brings it pain at the same time. Is this how life is to be lived? I myself this all theContinue reading ““The Cold Returns” – Nayana”

“Missing and wanting what lies forgotten” – Nayana Nair

For long I have lived avoiding a lot in life. The sting of disappointment. The pointless chatter that becomes noise, laughter, a habit. A lovely company. The colors that didn’t suit me, colors that I loved just the same. But now I miss the life in my heart and the pain that made skies andContinue reading ““Missing and wanting what lies forgotten” – Nayana Nair”

“Summer” – Nayana Nair

It will soon be summer and you will also leave. And the plates of the earth will rearrange themselves, to retain the distance they love to keep. Soon my arms would be empty and slowly they would learn to hold you better, to hold you close, only when you’ve gone.

“Name a few” – Nayana Nair

Your hands were tired of holding me together, holding me to ground, keeping me safe from myself and my fate. And when you were no longer there I could go anywhere in the world, live different lives, and see the world anew. Wait for the death of my sorrow. Or kill myself with what IContinue reading ““Name a few” – Nayana Nair”

“Slowly, Regretfully” – Nayana Nair

I am dissolving in the ocean that has no water but only salt. The salt that is more closer to this earth than I am. I am changing slowly, regretfully, into a form of your liking. A form that feels more belonging in this world than I ever will. My heart slips slowly into theContinue reading ““Slowly, Regretfully” – Nayana Nair”