“Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair

She just laughed and said“you are not really intelligent,you know that right?”as she packed her bag,making space for her only notebook, with difficulty.I wonder if she really needs all those the things.She is not a careful person,I know that because her list of priorities is horizontal-everything is important, everything is equally dispensable.I hear a songContinue reading ““Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair”

“this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair

wave after wave of cold air,of sad premonitionsreached us, tried to convince usthat this was a really bad idea.that on a cold day like thisthere were easier ways to find warmth,ways that would take away no part of us. and frankly i was afraid.i stopped maybe a million times on my tracks.i waited for someoneContinue reading ““this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair”

“For Now” – Nayana Nair

There is no “my type of person”,“my one and only friend”, or “my only hope”.There is too much of youthat is not for me,that I won’t take even if you gave it away for free.Because for every word of yours that I find beautiful,there are thousand other words that I have not heard yetthat wouldContinue reading ““For Now” – Nayana Nair”

“What we won’t find” – Nayana Nair

I have spent every bit of my energytrying not to cry, not to lose,trying to believe that this suffering is fine,that I’ll somehow make it through.I struggle to forget all the compromisesthat have only given me new scars that no one can see but me,to come in terms with the factthat it is not myContinue reading ““What we won’t find” – Nayana Nair”

“Steal” – Nayana Nair

The tree I grew on, the frozen giant I wrapped myself around has lost its strength, its life to keep someone like me alive. Can I say it has given up its life for me when I am the one that stuck to it first, when I am the one that steals what I cannotContinue reading ““Steal” – Nayana Nair”

“New Limitations” – Nayana Nair

I tended to all the brokenness that now remained on your skin after they found you at places where they didn’t want you to be. I hoped it was only your skin that was red and sore. The more silent you sat, the more my heart worried. As you tired to smile for me IContinue reading ““New Limitations” – Nayana Nair”