i will read you another storyso that you may knowthat faults and lacks of humans are common and in abundance,how ordinary are expectations-not-met.i will read till my eyes closetill you can see all there is to see,till you see everyone around youwho are disappearing into silence,till you see all the kind words you could haveContinue reading ““I want you to see the world” – Nayana Nair”
We once loved this worldmore than ourselves.Now we just like everythingonly as much as our own temperaments and thoughts permit. The oranges reminds him of view from his broken home,the sour taste of everything that should have been beautiful. The glowing beads fill my mind with the images of meaningless gifts,the faces of men andContinue reading ““Temperaments and Thoughts” – Nayana Nair”
i wonderwhy i was born so, with so many roots,roots that find only emptiness at the end of their tips.
what do i want? snapshots of food i can’t eat? GIFs and videos to forward? people to gossip about? people to gossip to? friends? false sense of confidence? a filter for my mouth? a switch to put my heart to death? a reality check (altered to suit my expectation)? amnesia? counselling sessions? one more funContinue reading ““Wish List” – Nayana Nair”
I wanted to be adored unconditionally, cared for without limits. In that dream there only existed me and this love. There was no room for any other mortal human, no room for weakness except mine. There was no room for you.
We are too suspicious when we find the hearts we can trust,too burdened when they trust us back,too careless towards what is ours.We are too vain to apologizeand too distracted to stay in love.We have stored up so much lonelinessand so many expectationsthat nothing quite matches up to the standards we have.
This sad heart of yours,this heart that I love the most,I wondered oncewhy it couldn’t rise above what it is suffering fromeven when you have me.Why as I sit with you talking about myselfyou smile as if trying to contain the tears that you won’t be able to explain. x I have always felt thatContinue reading ““Saviour” – Nayana Nair”
The gentle snow, my longing eyes, your beautiful smile- all against the landscape lost in eternal white. All these are no longer my precious memory of my everlasting love. I do not remember when you became this person who capable to such harm and such deceit. It is a shame that the you from longContinue reading ““White Eternity” – Nayana Nair”
somehow that is where i always found myself. crushed between the expectation that i had from myself, even if these expectation in no way could be ever called achievement, even if i could fulfill them. maybe that is precisely why i felt so crushed when my plans didn’t work out. it was not becauseContinue reading ““What I Remember (3)” – Nayana Nair”
If I was to resent that everyone I met, everywhere I went, everyone took something from me, yanked it out of my consciousness, moved within my mind with dirty shoes and clumsy hand, and left me clueless of who I am. Then I would also have to thank this world for all the things thatContinue reading ““Clueless” – Nayana Nair”