“something must be wrong with me, to think of you still now” – Nayana Nair

i cried again today– a silent sobhidden behind the highest volume of television.yesterday i found my grief for a second in the fading of another song.it lasted for a second-my glace, my hopeless glanceat your retreating figureand my fruitless love left in its wake.a shallow love clenching my heart.

“All the boxes are checked” – Nayana Nair

It hurts a bit more naturallyand less violently,now that betrayal has a range,has not one but many faces.Now I need not figure what I did wrong. All the boxes are checked: family, family, friends, not friends,thank-god-we-were-never-friends friends,i-am-sad-i-stood-up-for-you friends,people who marked my skin with their nameto own mewhile i slept in their arms(another golden cup addedContinue reading ““All the boxes are checked” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (20)” – Nayana Nair

I am told I am not wise,that I do not have the intellect that could make anyone swoon over me.I try too hard, put too much effortto be considered worth protecting.I rank even lower on the stats of beauty.I know that since I have found discarded paperswritten by boys-who-will-always-be-boyswho document my plummeting desirability religiously.But sinceContinue reading ““What I Remember (20)” – Nayana Nair”

“Then, Now” – Nayana Nair

Then There is more to life than merely staying alive. And happiness is all I sought. It was a small thing to ask, I couldn’t figure out why it was the only thing I never got. Now There is more to life than merely wanting happiness. Courage to live one more day is all thatContinue reading ““Then, Now” – Nayana Nair”