“What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair

Another chanceto get our highfrom the powdered dust of dreams,from digging desperately, getting closer to the voiceof the demons we buried just yesterday,breaking nails and curfews tosave the skins we can’t live without. Another chanceat making a home,choosing colors for our ceilings,choosing the sides we will sleep on,choosing not to be the ones we haveContinue reading ““What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair”

“The only way to be complete” – Nayana Nair

I sit on the cold boulderand film everything, just like I am told.I am told, only for today,I should stop sewing myself up haphazardly,messing up the live-stream,and talking about things that will never happen.I have been told to put a holdon the wonderful manipulation that does no goodto any effort my mind putsin fixing thingsContinue reading ““The only way to be complete” – Nayana Nair”

“fairy tales” – Nayana Nair

a broken endwith a light(a lighter duller than me)touches me.someonesays the magic words,the loathsome wordsthat make me the old alice.i am made to leavethe seat, the home,the dream, the rightsthat are too big for me.they leave me a tiny suitcasesfilled with fancy dressesmade of used socks and handkerchiefs.they are cute,they are kind,they have read theirContinue reading ““fairy tales” – Nayana Nair”

“Redraw” – Nayana Nair

Every time I held your hand, I felt it.Your blood, your voice, your mindtaking a step back, a silent declaration, “I can only love you this much”. ~ I stood on the lines I am not meant to cross.I shifted uncomfortably from one leg to another,afraid what my next step could do to your heart.WonderingContinue reading ““Redraw” – Nayana Nair”

“You’re right” – Nayana Nair

last night *i do not like saying last nightbecause once i only used to speak of it as ‘yesterday night’until someone told me that it’s wrong, even if it means the same so last nighti thought how it is something you’d say“it means the same, but you are wrong” sample conversation(based on reality, read tooContinue reading ““You’re right” – Nayana Nair”

“Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair

Even a harmless silence on your part brings me down to tears. I act in pathetic way trying to get you back, trying to buy your love sometime using sympathy, sometimes throwing tantrums, sometimes by changing myself, by changing you, at times pretending that I am done with you hoping that you try to stopContinue reading ““Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair”

“Collecting Meaning and Beauty” – Nayana Nair

I am stacked with all that belongs to you and nothing that you have feels yours. It is as if you were busy finding things that didn’t look like you and hoped that if you surrounded yourself with all kinds of right then your fault that people talk about could find a mirror to fixContinue reading ““Collecting Meaning and Beauty” – Nayana Nair”

“Wrong Way” – Nayana Nair

They forgot to teach me the most basic thing- to know which side I should take to keep a check on papers, to see sense when someone tells me what is politically right and to agree when they tell me that identity is everything not only mine, but of all those who live on sameContinue reading ““Wrong Way” – Nayana Nair”

“New Limitations” – Nayana Nair

I tended to all the brokenness that now remained on your skin after they found you at places where they didn’t want you to be. I hoped it was only your skin that was red and sore. The more silent you sat, the more my heart worried. As you tired to smile for me IContinue reading ““New Limitations” – Nayana Nair”

“Switched On” – Nayana Nair

As the light and the life of the streets are switched on, I wait for your knock on my door, my heart going on imaginative trips to the hell of not knowing. Not knowing with whom you might fall in love, where you might find another broken human to pet, in what form will thatContinue reading ““Switched On” – Nayana Nair”