“The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair

Today you are silentand you don’t care.You have changedwithout changing anything about you.You don’t want to be concerned withshould-be or could-beas all that matters is what is.what-is is a fact that needs no forgivenessfrom what-didn’t-come-to-be.You beg me not drag you downinto the waters of the past, “They are uglythey are hard, they are things thatContinue reading ““The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair”

“On the Road to Spring” – Nayana Nair

The trees that flowermay extend their hands to the pitiful usand ask us to walk with them,learn a bit more about beginnings,about the ends that we must eventually be. Tell me, in those moments of hopeam I allowed to want?What should I do with the peopleI have abandoned, about the thingsI can’t be forgiven for?Continue reading ““On the Road to Spring” – Nayana Nair”

“Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair

I find myself trappedbetween forgiveness and frustration. How often have I saidthat I want to be your strength.How easy it was to say itwhen I didn’t really know you or me. But nowwhen your breaking and my sadnessis of your makingI am fumbling for better words- words that can show my heartthat aches for youContinue reading ““Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair”

“I don’t want to be right anymore” – Nayana Nair

I wonder‘me being right’at what point of time it became synonymousto finding out that his heart is empty-my name washed out by the waves of the other girl.The girl whom he swore is not his type.“I was right”, I said as my hand trembled with anger and then fearas I waited for the reply, forContinue reading ““I don’t want to be right anymore” – Nayana Nair”

“Delicate” – Nayana Nair

On Sundays, I wear the purple summer dressthat I once promised myself I would never wear.I paint my nails, I color my lips, and I open the windows in me.I become someone I was taught to hate, I try to breakmy hatred with my smile.I let myself be reignedby the greed for beautiful, sweet, shiningContinue reading ““Delicate” – Nayana Nair”

“The owners of my mind” – Nayana Nair

I finally sit with people who have owned my mind,who have left it astray,who have come back at inopportune momentsto claim a bit of my peace for their own heart. They say guilt keeps them awake at nights.They say they need me once again.They need to see the smile of another victimto convince themselves thatContinue reading ““The owners of my mind” – Nayana Nair”

“What have my eyes lost sight of ?” – Nayana Nair

As I sing your praiseI end up recallinghow I used to look at you as if you could save me.But now we stare at each other while my life remains what it is.I don’t call it a mess now, to get some sympathy out of you,to get a miracle out of you.I don’t call itContinue reading ““What have my eyes lost sight of ?” – Nayana Nair”

“notes to myself/words i never follow” – Nayana Nair

travel lightand don’t get your heart brokenno matter what you are promised in return. don’t try to make another’s skin yours.the cold won’t kill you, but the search of warmth will. you may cry, cry, and cry. you may think you will cry for an eternity.but sleep will still find your exhausted eyesand you willContinue reading ““notes to myself/words i never follow” – Nayana Nair”

“A lie for every fear” – Nayana Nair

I walk past houses that are too silent to be there.Another drop of tearlands on my hand. I dare not stop and look. I fear I might end up finding my own home that I had left. In my eyes I might end up holding the face of the onewhose sorrow I can’t still bear.Continue reading ““A lie for every fear” – Nayana Nair”

“Calling” – Nayana Nair

my heart-i wish for its sake that i don’t make it through this sadness.for its sake i don’t want to forget nor forgive.anyway, the next love will just be the same story with new actors.except me.me-like always i would give myself upfor lives of those who are better than meand put my heart on aContinue reading ““Calling” – Nayana Nair”