the truth isi have loved youmore than what my heart could take. for yearsthe only moment i loved myself, felt proud of myselfwere the ones where i put my better judgement in the drain,were the ones where i clinged onto you even as you made me cry,were the ones where i suffocated and killed myContinue reading ““to the one who loved everything true” – Nayana Nair”
Once you go to other side, you are not welcome back. And even if second chances grant you entry here, you will eternally be on parole, under the watchful eyes of others. In this bright world, I live as a prisoner where my sins are my new name.
I am not walking over your footprints. I am walking into the space you used to occupy in this world. I am walking into your absence. I am taking your place. I am taking your voice. I am taking in the laughter that escaped your lips and never found their way back. I am walkingContinue reading ““Your Place” – Nayana Nair”
I checked my diaries for the hints of regrets, for the eroding structures of demands I once made from life. I checked my skin for the trace of scars- the remains of the unreasonable yet necessary decisions. The sharp bleeding memory of the blade, of the hatred I inflicted on myself. I checked the outlineContinue reading ““Eroding Structures” – Nayana Nair”
Let us not delve into the question of what went wrong. I have loved heartache even as I was trying to run away from it. I have missed the mess my life was when I was granted the calm that I begged for. Everything I wanted could never soothe my wounds. Everything I have lovedContinue reading ““What went wrong” – Nayana Nair”