“The Year of Frost Starts” – Nayana Nair

You walk in with a cake of rust,two hours late.You kiss me ,wait for me to smile,to say thanks,to make another offering of myselfat your shrine. You tell me of love,the only love that you cannotget out of your heart.This love that suffocates you these daysmore than before.How my face asks for too much,even whenContinue reading ““The Year of Frost Starts” – Nayana Nair”

“Hope you feel the same” – Nayana Nair

I read about the life you left behind.About the days when love couldn’t protect anyone.Days when there rose a necessary evil in you.It seems once you were good enough to fall for the traps that I live in.I wish I had known the fragile you,but maybe it is all for the best,for my cruelty walksContinue reading ““Hope you feel the same” – Nayana Nair”

“in this castle of forever” – Nayana Nair

i held on,only because i fearedi might regret giving up on someonewhom i could have probably loved again with time. i held on even whenthis scenario of finding love in you again didn’t give me any happiness. love only taught me fear.fear of hurting you.fear of being hurt. in this castle of foreveri haunted theContinue reading ““in this castle of forever” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair

#about the street where we won’t meet There is a street in my mind, where an often underappreciated singer sings about a love that stands just across the street. Forever they stand there, one trying make up combinations of words, variations of beautiful verses – not to win her heart, but to beg the worldContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair

I think of the clothes that are too tight or too loose for me,of my skin that doesn’t like me the way it used to.How the mirrors in my home are hidden by the growing towers of books.I wonder what this says about me?I think of the fear that I feel when I am alone,theContinue reading ““What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair”

“Dripping Doubts” – Nayana Nair

This loud and constant dripping of doubtsis this all I need to mute, to mask,the voices of people who have known me too less,who have loved me more than they needed to. . . . I am filled with fear, tempted to run awaywhen they make sacrifices for my happiness,to stay by my side.I knowContinue reading ““Dripping Doubts” – Nayana Nair”

“Flower Everyday” – Nayana Nair

Walk towards mewith no hidden agendas,only openly declared intention to use mefor gaining whatever you want.Call it love, if only it makes you feel better.Not for my sake.For me, it only makes it worse. x Walk away with apparent contemptat what is left of me,when everything in me wilted.I know you can only love theContinue reading ““Flower Everyday” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember(5)” – Nayana Nair

No it is not an escape anymorebecauseit is not only me who is into these addictions of milder kind.All I want is what everyone already has.Don’t worry these books and music I get high ondon’t alter my perception of realitylike they used to before.So I am fine with irrelevant goals of having one more bookContinue reading ““What I Remember(5)” – Nayana Nair”

“Only Me” – Nayana Nair

Stay here with me. Everyone else has forgotten you dear. Only me, it is only me that carries you everywhere it rains, everywhere the Sunday morning starts with empty table and aching heart, everywhere the number blinking in my phone is not yours. It’s only me that wakes up in this nightmare of life clutchingContinue reading ““Only Me” – Nayana Nair”

“Poster” – Nayana Nair

I thought I would only have one poster when I decided to clearly define what I am. I stuck it up only after careful consideration. Consideration of the space it takes. Consideration of the how much I am allowed to grow. Condsideration for the things that will be hidden away and lost under the layerContinue reading ““Poster” – Nayana Nair”