“The door opens slowly” – Nayana Nair

I turned another cornerand walked into another housethat I knew nothing about.The owner, the god of this land stood thereoutside in the gardentelling a child how to create more beautiful loops,how to somersault,how to find more worms, more of everything.An adult placed like a talismanthat couldn’t keep meor what I bring with me away.He didn’tContinue reading ““The door opens slowly” – Nayana Nair”

“The last brick is in my heart” – Nayana Nair

In every country, in every city,on every streetstands a home that could have been ours.I am a daydreamer like thatAs I passed the house with an always crying child,as I passed the house with the overwhelming smell of incense,as I passed the house with singing reality shows played on repeatI only thought of the lifeContinue reading ““The last brick is in my heart” – Nayana Nair”

“A lie for every fear” – Nayana Nair

I walk past houses that are too silent to be there.Another drop of tearlands on my hand. I dare not stop and look. I fear I might end up finding my own home that I had left. In my eyes I might end up holding the face of the onewhose sorrow I can’t still bear.Continue reading ““A lie for every fear” – Nayana Nair”

“Aunt” – Nayana Nair

“Yes, I do have plans for my future my dear aunt.” I say, after I see her put her cup down and look at me with sympathy and resentment. “How can we not worry. It is your future we are talking about.” Actually, I never had these conversation, at least not with my aunt. IContinue reading ““Aunt” – Nayana Nair”

“Where I Stop” – Nayana Nair

Every few days I feel the urge to get out of this house that feels so full of myself. Guilt of a comfortable life forces me out, so I take a stroll through supermarket. I wish I said that I went to a park but I didn’t. But I do remember going there once orContinue reading ““Where I Stop” – Nayana Nair”

“Whale Songs” – Nayana Nair

My house on hills and its silence are always occupied in a duel with the wartime echoes from far away lands, with the agonizing voices of reality. Even if I surround my house with the greenest trees, place cool streams around. Even if I cloud my windows with curtains of smoke. Even if I barterContinue reading ““Whale Songs” – Nayana Nair”

“Endless Screech” – Nayana Nair

It has been long since I saw your face for what it was. Now the ends of your lips droops and your words stings and your action have become the endless screech of a madman. I didn’t want to spare my words to remind you of your change. I didn’t want to forgive you forContinue reading ““Endless Screech” – Nayana Nair”

“Walking Home” – Nayana Nair

The street is lined with houses that have forgotten how to breathe anything but neglect. There are broken windows through which I see hopeful eyes staring and crying trapped in homes that reek of wait that yields more wait. The street is lined with trees that never grew. The roads cling to the snow thatContinue reading ““Walking Home” – Nayana Nair”

“Mistaken” – Nayana Nair

Surely there were others as well who were standing beside me till now, who loved me, at least liked me. Surely I am mistaken that I am abandoned. There were several houses that fell silent as my legs lingered on their doorsteps. There was a sigh of relief as I left. A sigh muffled byContinue reading ““Mistaken” – Nayana Nair”

“Other ‘Almost’s” – Nayana Nair

Sometimes you find me the words that I am too tired to look for. And place it in my hand with such careful touch, that I feel I could almost cry. And that too will be added to the list of other ‘almost’s that my life has lived through. These moments become a house standingContinue reading ““Other ‘Almost’s” – Nayana Nair”