“Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair

… In rooms like thesemy hollowness becomes real. It becomes an ant that won’t stop walkingwith its tiny feet across the span of my hands,a felling that won’t rest. It feels like the rainthat falls and fills everything before me.Leaving me alone. Alone to think of you. And I.again I find in you a hope?aContinue reading ““Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair”

“Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair

“The sky is your canvas”,the book to all ailments said,“there is a joy in filling it up with life.”But as I finished my 157th sketch,as I finished my 300th one,as I finished the one with no count attached(the one I called “the limits that were stronger than me”),as I write over all that I hadContinue reading ““Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair”

“On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair

On the tapered ends of my lipswhen I found your lips nestled near mine,I asked“Is this love? Is this your love?”and you answered “Obviously not.”So I told my heart to grow up.Growing up was the only waynot to hurt. On the spring infested roads,I found your handon my melting waist. On a nameless cold rainyContinue reading ““On a morning long gone” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair

#enemy_of_hope On my way to you, there is a world that I must walk through. In the dense fog, through the things truer than us, the steps that I take are the heaviest, the decisions I make the most difficult. “Rows and flows of angel hairAnd ice cream castles in the airAnd feather canyons everyContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair”

“Wedding Photos” – Nayana Nair

It was like magicrunning the highlighter, the bright crayonover the sepia hands of her.She didn’t complain or cryas we ruined another photograph of hers,as we tried to hide the evidenceof her failed love, our failing life. We cut her out, moved her awayfrom the one who looked like us.We placed her side of story, herContinue reading ““Wedding Photos” – Nayana Nair”

“The only way to be complete” – Nayana Nair

I sit on the cold boulderand film everything, just like I am told.I am told, only for today,I should stop sewing myself up haphazardly,messing up the live-stream,and talking about things that will never happen.I have been told to put a holdon the wonderful manipulation that does no goodto any effort my mind putsin fixing thingsContinue reading ““The only way to be complete” – Nayana Nair”

“News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair

DRAWING THE STARS WRONGall my hopes, now in your hands,feel like signs of trouble.i liked it on paper, the broken star in red ink,but not on my sky.can i undo my steps to you?will my heart break even if you leave my skin? STRIPPING YOU OF FLESHbefore i turn away from youthere are things thatContinue reading ““News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair”

“Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair

I find myself trappedbetween forgiveness and frustration. How often have I saidthat I want to be your strength.How easy it was to say itwhen I didn’t really know you or me. But nowwhen your breaking and my sadnessis of your makingI am fumbling for better words- words that can show my heartthat aches for youContinue reading ““Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair”

“Reduced” – Nayana Nair

One of these daysI might just stop loving youand that might just break me.But I feelI might be less cold,less reckless,and less patheticin that sort of breaking.I want to be reduced to myself for once.For once I don’t want to carry aroundthe magnificence of undelivered love on my shoulderand stand outside stores with doors tooContinue reading ““Reduced” – Nayana Nair”

“harmless” – Nayana Nair

i slipped, fell, and cut my skin.i didn’t want to care, but i did.i couldn’t help but feel sorry for all the harmless thingsthat ended up being cursed at, blamed foronly because i ran towards themwith all that i had in me.i recalled the formula of impact,that never meant so much to metill i realizedContinue reading ““harmless” – Nayana Nair”